Good morning! A little disappointed, I'm up to 209. Lbs this AM. This is is where it's dangerous for me, my scale gives fat, fat%, etc., the past few days I've been peeking at those numbers and this morning found myself obsessing over which is up by what. I have to shake it off and walk away. I trained last night and I'm very sore so I'm hoping it's from that but the scale said my water was down and my fat was up... Augh! There I go again!!!!

I have training again tonight and hopefully will see some positive movement by Thursday. My next weigh-in with Elle is on Tuesday and I so desperately don't want to let her down. I'll be thrilled with inches if I'm not pulling the pounds at least that will show her progress. We increased some of my weights last night and others I struggled with (anything with the shoulders really) so we had to decrease the weight on those and increase the amount of reps in a set. I still can’t do a pushup, not one, not even on the knees. Between my shoulder and my back I just don’t know if I will ever be able to do this and I want to so badly. Honestly, I’m turning 44 this year and have never been able to do ONE pushup from the ground up or a girly pushup and go all the way down. I want to be able to do at least 5 full pushups by this time next year. Tomorrow is my Chiro appointment maybe it will be better after the decompression therapy session. I feel like the wind is being sucked out of my sails.

I fell asleep (ok passed out) last night after my shower and had to run around like crazy this morning to prep some food…I was able to get breakfast and snacks but not lunch…so today I’ll have to order a salad with grilled chicken or maybe Chinese steamed rice, vegetables and chicken. I feel like a train wreck today, I don’t like this, completely unprepared, and winging it. It’s so easy to make mistakes when I’m feeling like this. I am a little worried. I looked back at my weigh-ins and on 6/24 I was 215.4, today I’m 209 and the sad part is that half of the weight lost was from the cleanse. That's not MY victory

I needed to find something that would bring me back around, inspire me to stand up and fight on; something to be positive about...the quote below was just what I needed.

“Obstacles don’t have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don’t turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it.” ~ Michael Jordan

Hope we all meet our daily goals and have the inner strength to avoid the things that wear us down.

Have a great day!