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Wednesday, Jul 23 2014 - Emotional
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Im a bit emotional, six months ago today my mother passed away, I miss her terribly.
The text messages with my sisters and nieces started at 5:30 am, it has been a hard morning. My Mom and I shared a lot and including trying to lose weight, I know she would be happy that Im making my health a priority. I know she is not suffering anymore, is dancing in heaven with Daddy but it still cuts deep and I wonder if I will ever overcome the selfishness of not wanting to let her go. I just miss her so much.
My grandson also turned nine months today. Luckily my youngest had to watch him at my house today so I was able to spend a little time with him before work this morning. It was a nice distraction and helped pull my mood back from the sadness, he doesnt let me dwell.
Training went well I guess, still restricted by physical limitations but we increased my weights on most and only scaled back on the inner thigh machine (it was hurting my back), decreasing the weight and increasing the reps by 5 was comfortable. I really hope to see better progress soon, sometimes I feel like for every two steps forward, I take one step back. Elle keeps telling me to be patient that we are modifying and it will just take longer but will get there. She says this is where most people give up and quit, so either I accept it and keep going, just modifying and doing the best I can or I give up of course Im going to keep going. I dont want to allow the sciatica, spine and should issues to control my life I will overcome all of it! I may have to modify but I WILL not let them defeat me! I am STRONG like my Mother and Father were, its in my DNA, its part of who I am and who Ive always been sometimes I get caught up in life and forget what Im capable of.
The quote that I related with today it reminds me of the strength both my Mother and my Father had.
The strongest oak tree of the forest is not the one that is protected from the storm and hidden from the sun. Its the one that stands in the open where it is compelled to struggle for its existence against the winds and rains and the scorching sun. ~ Napolean Hill
Hope we all meet our daily goals and find our inner strength today
Happy hump day!
The text messages with my sisters and nieces started at 5:30 am, it has been a hard morning. My Mom and I shared a lot and including trying to lose weight, I know she would be happy that Im making my health a priority. I know she is not suffering anymore, is dancing in heaven with Daddy but it still cuts deep and I wonder if I will ever overcome the selfishness of not wanting to let her go. I just miss her so much. My grandson also turned nine months today. Luckily my youngest had to watch him at my house today so I was able to spend a little time with him before work this morning. It was a nice distraction and helped pull my mood back from the sadness, he doesnt let me dwell.
Training went well I guess, still restricted by physical limitations but we increased my weights on most and only scaled back on the inner thigh machine (it was hurting my back), decreasing the weight and increasing the reps by 5 was comfortable. I really hope to see better progress soon, sometimes I feel like for every two steps forward, I take one step back. Elle keeps telling me to be patient that we are modifying and it will just take longer but will get there. She says this is where most people give up and quit, so either I accept it and keep going, just modifying and doing the best I can or I give up of course Im going to keep going. I dont want to allow the sciatica, spine and should issues to control my life I will overcome all of it! I may have to modify but I WILL not let them defeat me! I am STRONG like my Mother and Father were, its in my DNA, its part of who I am and who Ive always been sometimes I get caught up in life and forget what Im capable of.
The quote that I related with today it reminds me of the strength both my Mother and my Father had.
The strongest oak tree of the forest is not the one that is protected from the storm and hidden from the sun. Its the one that stands in the open where it is compelled to struggle for its existence against the winds and rains and the scorching sun. ~ Napolean Hill
Hope we all meet our daily goals and find our inner strength today
Happy hump day!
5 comments so far.
5.
a decade ago
I'm sad for you Cindy.
I've been having the same conversation with myself often. You only have two choices - give up or keep trying. Today I choose to keep trying.
by SHARONPED
4.
a decade ago
Of course you are grieving today. And it's not selfish at all. Hugs to you and hope you are ok and it's lovely that you had time with your grandson. Also, I'm inspired by your commitment and dedication to pushing through with your trainer. You will be successful with that attitude. Most excellent! Cheryl55
by CHERYL55
3.
a decade ago
right there with you!!
It's not that i'm catching you, it's you inspire me to be LIKE you!!!
by SYDNEY
2.
a decade ago
There will be lots of anniversaries and each one will be less sad...promise.
I really like your trainer. She's a keeper. All the trainers at the gyms I've ever been to are all butts.
by CAROLBINTX
1.
a decade ago
So sorry you are going through that. I hope you have a great day.
by TDBHALL