Happy Hump Day! I got to play with the grand baby again this morning…now I won’t see him again until Saturday.

Yesterday was such a crazy day, during the morning meeting it was discovered it was the Big Bosses birthday; OK honestly, he made it a point to tell us all his online friends congratulated him but no one else (many times during the course of the meeting). After the meeting a co-worker and I took a ride to a bakery and bought a death by chocolate brownie birthday cake, realizing it’s not traditional but he LOVES chocolate so it was perfect.
I actually asked her to go with me because I didn’t want to be alone with the cake or in a bakery. I have avoided situations like that and was starving because I hadn’t eaten lunch yet. I was worried I might cave because my first thought was “Oh I wonder if they have cheese Danish” one of my favorites…this was a red flag for me that this could be dangerous territory so I hijacked a co-worker whose job it was to hold the cake and play keep-a-way from me. When I got back to the office and everyone was sharing in the festivities, I stood just outside the break room door but with my body leaning on the door jam, so I was a apart of things but yet still felt like an outsider (by choice). I was safe.

After they all went back to work, I had to go into the break room and heat up my healthy lunch walking past that chocolate cake, I could feel it staring me down, calling my name, I said out loud “Shut UP” and flipped the lid over it, to somehow muffle the voice in my head. I grabbed my food and went back to my desk. It was a very hard, but I knew that just a taste of that cake; that dense moist dark chocolate cake covered in rich thick frosting and shaved dark chocolate adorned with brownies would derail me and bring on the self loathing, so I stepped away. I backup up slow and cautiously as if it was going to follow me. It sounds so crazy writing this but OMG it was really hard for me.

As I was sitting at my desk pondering this behavior it dawned on me, this is not new behavior, it’s the stopping of the old that caused this reaction. I am a sweets food addict, I don’t go for regular food or salty junk foods like most, I head only for sweet, specifically very chocolaty items when I’m stressed. I used to go to WaWa several times during the week to get milk, bread or gas and would always buy a candy bar, eat it in the car and throw out the wrapper before leaving the parking lot! I didn’t want anyone to know I was eating the candy! I’m being honest about this to free myself of that shame, to release myself from the hold. I made the right decision yesterday but it was a struggle and it paid off.

I had my weigh-in yesterday…A N D…I lost another 10 pounds in a month since starting my training with Elle; despite all the physical limitations that had me mostly concentrating on diet.
I lost another 6 ½ inches, bringing my total to 14 inches lost thus far! I am so happy, I’m actually feeling better and stronger and I’m going to try to add just 30 minutes one more day a week. I weighed in at 205 lbs 7oz this morning...I’m just 5lbs 7oz away from being under 200! It’s been years!!!! I am more motivated than ever!!!

This quote pretty much sums up my renewed healthy lifestyle…
“The past is a foreign country; they do things differently there.” ~ Leslie Poles Hartley

Hope we all meet our goals for today and set new ones for tomorrow

Have a great day!