Good Morning! I realized something this morning, I haven’t been eating the evening snack I record for the day (recorded the night before), it’s just a piece of dark chocolate at 60 cals but I use it to fit my fat and calorie targets plus it’s a sweet reward for being good. By forgetting to eat it, I’ve actually been at around 1295 calories but I’m satisfied after dinner. I thought I was hitting 1355 calories for the past few days but it’s actually been much lower. I will need to pay closer attention to this.

My weight is holding at 205.7 this am and I’m NOT complaining. I went to the Chiro last night, I wasn’t out as bad as I have been in the past few weeks and I feel so much better this morning. I see more changes in my body today; the fat over the bottom of my ribs has really diminished, I can actually feel my rib bones. My waist and the back fat have really pulled in as well…if I turn sideways in the mirror I can see there is a healthy strong body emerging but still fighting to be freed from the layers of fat. I see big changes in my inner thighs too…I’m no longer embarrassed about walking around my office because of the SWISH sound they made as they rubbed together (you could literally hear me coming…I was told) or being fearful that the friction may one day spark an actual fire. My goodbye arms (triceps) aren’t really waving anymore and I’m starting to notice smooth skin were the cellulite was on my biceps; they are starting to get a shape, no definition yet but they are changing. Its all these changes, they are showing me what is underneath the layers of fat I wore so long, a glimpse of what CAN be, that I have the power to make happen as long as I continue to choose ME.

I’m very excited for tonight, Elle has a new harder routine planned out for tonight, I am so grateful for her, her knowledge, patience and dedication…I couldn’t have done this as well with out her…I would have surely hurt myself by now. I feel mentally stronger today, focused and centered. I feel like I’ve found the path that will lead me to the real me. I’ve already changed so much for the better, mentally, emotionally and physically I can’t help but wonder who I will really be when I reach my goal? I’m learning so much about myself, who\how I really was, how I’m changing, I’m taking ownership of my shortcomings and setting goals to be a better human…not just losing weight. I am trying everyday to better myself and to be the best I know I can be.

I think that’s the difference right there…the last time I did CK and lost my weight, it was just about losing, this time its about an entire journey of self discovery, ownership, acceptance, responsibility to self, reflection, enlightenment, evolution and spirituality…a complete transformation of body, mind and soul. It feels great, I feel so calm and centered right now and I just hope I can hold onto this feeling.

The quote that spoke to me today…

“There are two primary choices in life: to accept conditions as they exist, or accept the responsibility for changing them.” ~ Dr. Denis Walley

Hope we all meet our daily goals and set new ones for tomorrow

Have a great day