THEFATCHICK's CalorieKing blog
Friday, Aug 22 2014
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Good morning! So happy it's Friday. I'm better today, I was very emotional yesterday, it started early when I thought and answered a question about what I would say to my Mom if I had 10 minutes with her, it was good for me to express it because I didn't realize I was holding it in all these months. As I was typing I had tears streaming down my face, I honestly didn't realize how much I feel like we failed her until yesterday and I carried the emotions with me all day...at least now I know it's something I have to work on processing, dealing with and letting go.
I have the CATscan this morning, it will rule out any blockages, etc., and determine if a colonoscopy is needed, it is the show all according to my doctor so maybe I'll get answers. I know yesterday I mentioned cancer I just want to be clear I don't necessarily think I have it just the doctor mentioned my symptoms are similar and another reason she would want to do the colonoscopy so is it in the back of my mind? Yeah, a little but do I really think I have cancer no. I had ovarian tumors (non cancerous) years ago that had to be removed, along with my ovaries and tubes because of the severity so that is more probable in my mind than cancer but it's the not knowing and not "going" that is wearing on me.
I'm in a better mental and emotional place today and looking forward to some answers.
Gotta go get ready but just wanted to get this down on virtual paper :-)
Have a great day!
I have the CATscan this morning, it will rule out any blockages, etc., and determine if a colonoscopy is needed, it is the show all according to my doctor so maybe I'll get answers. I know yesterday I mentioned cancer I just want to be clear I don't necessarily think I have it just the doctor mentioned my symptoms are similar and another reason she would want to do the colonoscopy so is it in the back of my mind? Yeah, a little but do I really think I have cancer no. I had ovarian tumors (non cancerous) years ago that had to be removed, along with my ovaries and tubes because of the severity so that is more probable in my mind than cancer but it's the not knowing and not "going" that is wearing on me.
I'm in a better mental and emotional place today and looking forward to some answers.
Gotta go get ready but just wanted to get this down on virtual paper :-)
Have a great day!
2 comments so far.
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a decade ago
as i read the word you wrote about what you would say to your Mom, i cried the whole time i read it and i found it really profound that you were able to reach that deep inside you and find words to your feelings, so much so i have not been able to respond
i have had 4 colonoscopy's and the prep it the worst part, BUT (
getting the results make you feel like a million bucks! just knowing that it's all working right and or you find out what is not working right at least you have answers and you can stay out of your head!!!!!!!!!
good luck!
by SYDNEY
1.
a decade ago
I can empathize with you on the colon problem. A few years ago, my doctor insisted that I do a routine colonoscopy. I was scared to death. "Only routine" she insisted. Well the test itself is a walk in the park -- no problems at all. It is the day before that killed me. All the prep and going to the bathroom -- well at the end of the test, the Dr. said that I had some minor polyps - they removed them- and that I should have another test in 3 years. I really did not want to go through that again -- So I kept putting it off.
So just last Spring the Doc said again -- It is time to have a colonoscopy. Well this time they have changed the prep solution and the day before was so much worse on my body -- I really thought I was going to die! Headache -- nausea - bms after drinking anything -- well again the doctor said that I need to do this again after 3 years.
Now to put all this in perspective - I have a sister with terrible IBS and she and I talk about this sometimes. I really don't want my problems to get as sever as hers. And -- my uncle just recently had surgery to remove an abscess on colon. The docs had to remove about a foot of his colon -- major surgery. He is fine now -- but what an ordeal.
I feel your stress -- But doctors have come a long way in treating problems with colons. Trust what the doctor says and have the test if that is what is recommended. Get a second opinion if you want to. Sometimes more information helps you make the right decision.
by SHARONHARMS