Good morning! I seriously have some weird stuff going on that is eerie. All the medical issues I've had lately are similar to thise Mom suffered with after the stroke, the drooping and painful right shoulder, mine was from a pinched nerve, hers was paralisis from the stroke yet she still had pain in the shoulder. Being impacted, she suffered with this and she also had a fistula, she would scream and cry when she went unless we got her to take medicine that loosened things up (she wouldn't always eat the food we were crushing the med into). The sciatic, she would cry it hurt so bad and I have that as well. Lastly she had an ulcerated sore on the tendon on the back of her left foot that broke down from the inside out and when the outer skin broke down and they cleaned out the infection you could see her tendons. Well I was bit by a spider at Moms house Sunday morning and had to go to the doctor last night because I now have an absess on the tendon on the back of my left foot that hurts like hell. I can talk to my doctors and explain what and where it hurts, my mom could not...I sat in my car and sobbed last night because I just felt so overwhelmed with sorrow for her and what she went through. I feel like I'm being given a taste if what she suffered with and I don't know why yet? Everything happens for a reason...just haven't figured it out yet.

When I got home last night I had a full house, hubby, both my daughters, the grand baby and my youngest's boyfriend stopped by too; it was a nice distraction from what I was feeling and turned my mood around.
I love my family so much and I believe in signs too so I have to figure out how the feelings I had and coming home to a full house which doesn't happen often are connected because I'm sure they are. Maybe it's mom reminding me why I'm trying to get healthy and not to fall back. I don't know.

I just know my Mom and I were both very empathetic people, we couldn't watch certain things on TV or an animal in pain because we felt the pain, suffering and emotion in our own bodies. It was particularly hard for me to watch her suffer as my body experienced sympathy pains and sadness. I'm not going to go into more detail I believe there is some kind of lesson here I just haven't figured out yet.

I know all a bit heavy for a Tuesday morning. I'm debating on if I should cancel training today or not, I didn't think I can lace up a sneaker but we're only doing arms so maybe I can get away with it today as long as I don't tie the one side. I will have to test it out at lunch, I brought socks and sneakers with me, if not, I will just have to cancel. I can't believe how painful and huge this thing is. If I don't train I will clean my bathroom shower, vacuum, mop the floors, and maybe dismantle the desk to make room for the baby's new play area...that should burn at least 350-450 calories. The last time I tracked calories burned during cleaning, the bathroom alone burned 267 calories.

Anyway, here's a positive quote for today.

"Each day, focus your attention on what you want. Each day, take one step that will bring you closer to it. ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! The key is to identify it, claim it for yourself, and believe that you are worthy to have it."

~~ Iyanla Vanzant

Have a great day!