Today is not as bad as yesterday, probably because I got mad and decided to fight back. I think sometimes when life pulls the rug out from under us we tend to lay down like we were tazered or something. I am strong, I am stronger than this, I am my parents daughter and they were two of the strongest people, it's in my DNA wiring. I'm going to fight like HELL, I will not lay down, I will not wait for life to decide an outcome I will be stronger, because I have to be!

My weight is starting to come off a little too fast, it has to be the stress of the situation, I am a little concerned. I'm exhausted but I'm not giving up. I'm trying to at least make healthy choices to help give me energy. I'm so tired and my role in this battle has only just begun. I know I have no control over the situation or others. I keep saying the serenity prayer to give me the mental and emotional strength I will need.

"God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference."

--Reinhold Niebuhr