TGIF! I'm not counting calories, I'm just trying to remember to eat. I caught myself yesterday and I allowed myself to be bad...I had a 6" whole wheat turkey and cheese sub with a lil mayo and 20 oz of water for lunch yesterday (I was on the road) and caught myself at home with two Ghiradelli 72% coco chocolate squares that I also allowed myself to have. I figured denying myself now would only lead to worse binging later. So I enjoyed my chocolate and told myself this is it, my 120 calls, 16 g of fat and 14g if sugar was it for the emotional eating and it was.

Something has definitely changed, before I would have been hitting full candy bars, 20oz coffees and pints of Ben and Jerry's imagine world peace ice cream. Now I can stop at two small chocolates and I have no sugar cravings today. Maybe I'm requiring my brain, I do know this journey and past year has showed me I was stronger than I thought and prepared me for what's coming ahead. I'm postponing my medical appts for only 2 weeks until I have a better idea of the situation at hand and how much I will need to be involved at first and then will continue to take care of me...right now it's just all too much!