Yesterday's trip to Chuck E. Cheese was very nice, my Grandson and Jillian's son didn't enjoy it as much as we did. Unfortunately the boys saw the big mouse and freaked from that point there was a lot of clinging and being Leary of any ride. Just as we decided to go somewhere else the boys started to play so we hung out for a little while longer and all ended up good. I was a little worried about the pizza but they had an all you can eat salad bar that looked really fresh (surprisingly) and had a lot of veggies to add...so that was my lunch...who would have thought.

I have been really lax since the " personal situation" happened in September, not recording or counting calories, and just not as focused as I would like to be. I know I am both my own problem and my own solution right now but it has just been overwhelming. I'm going to buy more training sessions and will be recommitting to myself and my health it is my goal to wear shorts this summer without feeling uncomfortable in my skin. Just 6 short months ago I was so unhealthy, tired, overweight, my body ached when I moved and when I looked in the mirror all I could think was two things "what happened to you?" And "look how sad you are" I never want to feel like that again.

For me personally, I feel so much better having lost some of that weight, I can do the simplest ordinary movements without the pain I once had and I can breathe so much better...that is priceless and I am so grateful for how far I've come but still so much more work to do. Now that things with my personal situation are more calmer or maybe I'm just dealing with it better but I have to focus on myself and do what I need to do for my health and happiness. I know I must be as dedicated and focused as I was when I started this journey 6 months ago and with the new year will be new resolve, determination and focus. I am strong and I can do it but most of all I need to do it, only I can. Elle teaches me what to do but its up to me to put it to motion.

I will take responsibility for myself, I have drawn a circle around my feet and what is inside the circle my friends is all I can and should control; who I have to focus on and who I have to help. The circle is also a measure of protection, its my bubble, by focusing on what's inside in circle "me" I stay balanced because outside the circle is what I have no control over and where the chaos lives.

I'm starting to ramble so it's time to go. Have a wonderful Sunday.