Happy new year! I feel like this past year flew by like a blink of an eye. So much happened; losing my Mom, my brother fighting for his life, the arguments with and within the family, my medical issues, work stress, events and other issues in my more personal life that all left me feeling broken and financial stress due to all of the above.

We all made it through the rough times into a new year for new beginnings and new chances everyday for positive change. I don't like to make resolutions because they are often done with great intentions but often dismissed. Instead I am making a promise to myself to make a conscious decision every day to take care of myself and to not participate in others actions or thoughts that will bring negativity, sadness or pain into my life. To focus on myself for a change, to understand that although people may cry out for my help it doesn't mean they are ready to take it and I just need to accept that.

The only person's actions I can control is my own because I own them. I must keep the focus on myself and what is good for me and my health. I must seek and find the positives in my life such as my grandson, my girls and my husband. I must seek positive resolutions to negativity which may be simply choosing not to participate in the Chaos of others to maintain my own happiness and balance.

I will try daily to do my best to make the best out of each day. To make the choice to take responsibility for my actions, my health and overall well being.

I want to get out of my comfort zone, try new things, overcome fears and thoughts that hold me back from living life to the fullest. Even if it's only one, maybe the fear of flying so we can visit my in-laws in Park City this summer, maybe it's something smaller such as swimming in the ocean with the wildlife below me...something, big or small. Something new, that doesn't have a previous bad experience tied to it like flying or swimming with the wildlife in an ocean or lake. Just some action different from what I've been doing.

I'm borrowing this quote quote from a friend (the Bliss Follower) because it sums up what I'm feeling.

"Positive bit for today...

If we do not open ourselves to what is new and untried, how will we know what the future might possibly bring beyond repetition of the past or the routines of the present?"

~~ John Indermark


Wishing us all a wonderful and positive new year filled with happiness and personal growth.