This weekend I took the Grandbaby to a family party and I had to carry him down a flight of stairs into the family room but I did it! I used to be terrified that I would fall down steps myself because of the pain in my knees and not only did I not have to go down sideways but I carried h up and down several times during the party with confidence. I remember in January after my moms repass and then again on May for the Mother's Day gathering standing at the top of the steps, my stomach in knots before taking the first step off the landing, fearful I would fall, holding the railing white knuckles as I went down. I remember how I struggled just to get myself up and down the stairs, how painful it was, the fear and I felt and how rather than go up the longer inside steps I would go up the much smaller basement door steps into the backyard and then walk around into the house if I needed to go upto the kitchen or bathroom.

Not only did I carry the baby but at one point I also carried the diaper bag, and his pack and play up the stairs as well. I felt so strong, so confident and physically able. I remember the fear I had previously felt and now that's history, now I have courage that I am more able bodied than before and that I am improving and feeling younger (less aches and pains) every day. It was awesome! I can't wait to tell Elle tomorrow night! I guess it's time to update my CK goals because that was my biggest goal, my most daily fear and now I've conquered it! As I become more empowered physically and mentally; I realize I'm growing as a person, become more who I want to be than who I wished I could be, releasing fears and setting more personal and physical goals.

I had hope before that I could loose some weight and maybe take away some of the pain. I was hoping for just enough to function daily, but never thought I would be able to get back to feeling like I did almost 10 years ago.

Here's a quote that reminds me of the old me versus the present...

People who consider themselves victims of their circumstances will always remain unless they developed a greater vision for their lives." - Stedman graham

Have a wonderful Monday!