Good Morning! I had the most wonderful weekend! I had my Grandson on both Saturday and Sunday, he is too much, so fun and getting so big. We made forts out of blankets and read books, learned how to eat cereal with milk all by himself, cleaned up after our meal, throwing out our trash like a “BIG HELPER”, brushing our teeth, played blocks and tag. His new thing is sharing his food; a raisin for him, and then feeding one to Grandma. Just thinking of him brings a huge smile across my face.

After he left I started cleaning out and reorganizing cabinets in the kitchen – you know the ones high up where you store all the crap you hardly use. I pulled down this green mug and when I looked inside I began to immediately cry, so stupid I know but it was full of WaWa sweet and low packets that my husband brought back for my Mom the last time she was at my house. It hit me, she won’t be sitting at my kitchen table sipping coffee, waving the packet gently back and forth to get the contents to fall to the bottom, and I would tell her “she didn’t need sweetener cause she was sweet enough.” We would smile and sip our coffee while the sun beamed through the windows, kissed our faces and gently brought us into the day. I miss those moments. It’s been a little over a year since she passed and how that stupid mug of sweetener packets affected me was surprising. I miss her so much. She would have spoiled my Grandson rotten LOL…she was great at that. She wouldn't have stood a chance against those big blue eyes, adorable smile and dimples of his…she always said she was a sucker for dimples.


I’m trying to reorganize and purge my home. I cleaned out the back part of the closet under the steps and found things from when my girls were little; rock’em, bop’em, sock’em blowup gloves, Barbie’s pool, half a Skipper doll and some other items. I just feel the need to purge, maybe its spring coming on, but I need change and to simplify my life and surroundings. I just can’t take the clutter anymore; between the materials for the bathroom that was started before Sandy hit (and never finished), my youngest Daughter’s stuff from when she moved back home with the two dogs…I just feel a little overwhelmed. I need to get my house back; I need it uncluttered, serene and calm again. I’m sure it will help me find more time for myself too…I just have to get it done.

I don’t have the Grandbaby this weekend, so I think I will send the hubby out with the guys, send my daughter out with her friends, turn off the phone, crank up the radio, roll up my sleeves and get into it…order dinner out and one of them can pick it up…I will be on a mission. I felt so accomplished last night after cleaning out that cabinet in the kitchen…there was stuff up there I haven’t used in years, stuff I forgot I had, don’t need, and stuff I wasn't sure why I had in the first place. I guess I’m purging all bad habits, cleaning the cobwebs and junk out of my life, reorganizing, re-evaluating and most importantly making the changes I feel necessary for me. For once in my life - it IS all about ME and what I NEED.

Positive quote that while is a little dramatic for my thoughts above ring true at the core.

“To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best night and day to make you like everybody else means to fight the hardest battle any human being can fight and never stop fighting.” ~~ Edward Estlin Cummings

Have a GREAT Monday!