Good morning! It's been a while but things are going well. the "situation" I was dealing with in my personal life has been so much better in recent weeks. The major player has been so much better and the stuff with Moms house is stirring up again. I guess that's how life works, only what you can handle at a time.

My siblings and I were served with papers from Mom's bank's lawyer regarding the reverse mortgage she took on her house and with it was a complete ledger of every financial transaction made since she took the reverse mortgage. She had only taken $90,000 but apparently she spent an additional $120,515.00 before she passed. It's sad because we know she helping various family members, especially one of my two sisters. My eldest brother and I took nothing and we're both very upset by the transactions which seemed to stop as soon as Mom had the stroke and the sister in question was forced to "get a job". My brother is livid and I have a feeling it isn't going to blow over, he feels the stress of this added to the causes of her stroke.

My Mom was the most giving I person I know she would seriously give you the last morsel of food she had, the last penny in her wallet and the shirt off her back. Giving gave her great joy, and she never turned anyone away, she was giving to a fault but it made her happy. My brother is mad at me for not being mad (stupid I know) but it's done, being mad about it know will only eat at me and that's not good for me. I also will not allow this to rip our family apart they are all I have left, Mom was a big girl and capable of making her own decisions, it was her house that she and my dad worked hard for. I am upset about the mess left behind nothing was in order and the one who took advantage the most is the executor of Moms estate so I just say "Mom left the house to you - it's yours now" she knows I never wanted the house and it's my passive aggressive way of saying "you did this now deal with it". I really am trying to be positive and let it all go emotionally and move on...clearly I still have to work at it.

Changing the subject onto more positive things, my youngest found a good job, she interviewed Thursday, had to go back Yesterday for a computer test, was then asked to stay and work until 5pm and then asked to come back and work today. It's a brand new construction company, they just opened in February but the owner has been working just under his name for years and decided to open an official business. I'm exited for her, she has purpose, so excited to go to work...she left her excited, with a joyful pep in her step, much like me, she enjoys working. So happy for her, she is already calculating her first check and what bills she can knock out first. She set up a budget last night that will allow her to pay her bills and save money for a new car; I'm amazed this one is still running. She said she still has to meet the one partner but the owner has final say and he is the one who hired her. She thinks it will end up being 48 hours per week at least during the warm weather months and she is happy to work any hours they throw her way.

As for me, I'm back down to 174 this am and still feeling stronger every day, still training and still focusing on getting fit. I realized I don't care to be skinny, I was to be fit, that is what's important to me, I may be bigger but I will be stronger and healthier than I ever was before. So if I never see a size 8 again that's ok...I bet I will look and feel better anyway.

Well, it's time to go fill plastic eggs for tomorrow's egg hunt. Have a great day!