THEFATCHICK's CalorieKing blog
Monday, May 11 2015
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Good morning. I hope all the Moms had a great day yesterday
I did! My eldest who is a professional baker & cook made me a box of assorted chocolates and gave me a mug that was finger painted by my Grandson. We had a really nice visit and dinner, a very slow and relaxing day. Dinner was Chinese and I only eat one thing, its probably the worst but I love General Tsos Chicken! I knew ahead of time so I adjusted my food and increased my water all day to offset the sodium and it worked, the scale didnt budge this morning. Im starting to think my scale is broken; the past week it seems to have been stuck on 179.5 lbs no matter what I did
I will have to test it later with dumbbells.
Tonight is the viewing for my Aunt Ethel, tomorrow is the funeral and they are at the same funeral home we used for Mom. This is going to be really hard (sigh).
My sisters arent dealing with it still, which means I have to be the rock again. A small part of me is annoyed, Im the baby of the family and I always have to be the strong one, just once I would like to let myself feel my emotions in the moment instead of being there for everyone else and dealing with myself later when alone.
Im glad my eldest brother is coming in from NY but Im not sure how he will be since he wasnt at Moms funeral because he was an ICU in NY at the time fighting for his own life. Im sure he will be dealing with a whole realm of different emotions too. He and I are the strong ones, the ones everybody leans on, I know its selfish but Im glad Im not alone this time; it will be hard enough for me. That last part makes me feel guilty because Im thinking about me but none of this is about me, its about paying respect to my aunt and being there for my family.
My aunt was an independent, smart, professional; strong, opinionated, outspoken, no-nonsense, hard working, loyal, sweet, loving, tender, joyous, giving and playful woman. I guess Mom and Aunt Ethel were a lot alike, maybe thats why they were best friends too. I already miss her so much, she helped shape who I am, she and my Mom were strong women, positive role models, both working outside the home and yet making their families a priority, and they made the balancing act look easy.
My aunt was a young widow with 9 kids, she worked full time as a RN and supported all of them. She lived three houses down; she, my parents and my Aunt Mary (my fathers youngest sister) co-parented us and my cousins. Its like the old saying it takes a village to raise a child. My childhood may not have perfect but I wouldnt trade it or the memories I have for the world.
Im feeling a little more at ease now by writing all this, she led a very full life, impacted many, and shared her love and wisdom with us all. She made all of us better by being an example of how she expected everyone else to be. She was subtle, witty, funny, quiet, and yet could wrangle in 9 kids with without batting an eye. She, like my Mom, was an amazing woman, I will always cherish the memories and time I was lucky enough to have spent with her.
These are my thoughts for today.
Tonight is the viewing for my Aunt Ethel, tomorrow is the funeral and they are at the same funeral home we used for Mom. This is going to be really hard (sigh).
My sisters arent dealing with it still, which means I have to be the rock again. A small part of me is annoyed, Im the baby of the family and I always have to be the strong one, just once I would like to let myself feel my emotions in the moment instead of being there for everyone else and dealing with myself later when alone.
Im glad my eldest brother is coming in from NY but Im not sure how he will be since he wasnt at Moms funeral because he was an ICU in NY at the time fighting for his own life. Im sure he will be dealing with a whole realm of different emotions too. He and I are the strong ones, the ones everybody leans on, I know its selfish but Im glad Im not alone this time; it will be hard enough for me. That last part makes me feel guilty because Im thinking about me but none of this is about me, its about paying respect to my aunt and being there for my family.
My aunt was an independent, smart, professional; strong, opinionated, outspoken, no-nonsense, hard working, loyal, sweet, loving, tender, joyous, giving and playful woman. I guess Mom and Aunt Ethel were a lot alike, maybe thats why they were best friends too. I already miss her so much, she helped shape who I am, she and my Mom were strong women, positive role models, both working outside the home and yet making their families a priority, and they made the balancing act look easy.
My aunt was a young widow with 9 kids, she worked full time as a RN and supported all of them. She lived three houses down; she, my parents and my Aunt Mary (my fathers youngest sister) co-parented us and my cousins. Its like the old saying it takes a village to raise a child. My childhood may not have perfect but I wouldnt trade it or the memories I have for the world.
Im feeling a little more at ease now by writing all this, she led a very full life, impacted many, and shared her love and wisdom with us all. She made all of us better by being an example of how she expected everyone else to be. She was subtle, witty, funny, quiet, and yet could wrangle in 9 kids with without batting an eye. She, like my Mom, was an amazing woman, I will always cherish the memories and time I was lucky enough to have spent with her.
These are my thoughts for today.
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