It's been 5 days since I had the seizure and still feeling very tired. I saw my primary doctor yesterday, I have to have a MRI and see a neurologist, both appointments are Monday. There is a chance I could have had a slight stroke only a test that measures brain waves can tell for sure. The doctor said a stroke could cause a seizure. All I know is I get tired easily now and seem to be getting headaches on and off throughout the day.

I am going stir crazy not working but know I'm not ready or up to going back yet. My daughter took me to the supermarket today where I ran into my bosses wife who told me one of my coworkers was traumatized by my seizure, she witnessed it and has been crying since...I guess I should email her tomorrow and let her know I'm okay. The support and concern from my coworkers has been overwhelming positive and is very much appreciated.

I'm thinking of taking some time off using family leave act to take care of all my doctor appointments and fully recover. I am one to push myself, I realize this is probably a good time to take it easy until I know what caused the seizure or what didn't cause it. I may never know but I would be less nervous I knew it wasn't a stroke. I guess the word "stroke" strikes fear in me because that's what Mom had that paralyzed her and what dad had when I was little that forever changed him. It is something I am afraid of, a definite fear.

This is just another obstacle, a test, something I have to deal with and continue on my healthy course of living regardless and despite the current circumstances. I will find a way to live, to live a healthy lifestyle including exercise and to finally be fit and healthy regardless of life's obstacles. Each test just shows me how much stronger I actually have become both mentally and physically. I'm not out yet...just regrouping.