Good morning! I had another seizure Tuesday at work, my whole body is killing me; I'm bruised, sprained my ankle and bit my tongue pretty bad. I was worrying/stressing about a project that I wasn't given enough time to complete, I have to get the office set up, ISP, telecom, alarm systems, PItney Bowes and PC's. If I don't get the services brought in on time they can't open and loose money and well I'm a bit stressed over this because they forgot to tell me the anticipated move in date and only gave me two weeks notice.

So my lawyer friend wants me to file a claim against my employer for my loss because of the stress and I've had both seizures while at work...that's just not me. I know I'm being affected physically and maybe I need to look for something else or transfer to a 8-4:30 job but I have 12 years there and I'm not willing to just give up without a fight. I'm certainly not ready to turn on them, I pride myself on being loyal...and maybe I'm being stupid too but I don't feel like suing them is the right thing to do.

I'm just tired of being stressed and tired. The hospital increased my dosage (I was on the minimum) and I'm lucky this time my memory isn't impacted like it was last time. I feel mentally competent this time whereas last time I had a lot of confusion and forgetfulness. This time is different.

I scared the crap out of my coworkers again, the poor new guy, he replaced someone who passed away and then I have a seizure at his desk...I would be like peace out! I joke but I really did scare them and they are my work family. We all care about each other and as dysfunctional as it can be, we also have each others backs and care about one another. I think I'm going to start taking up yoga again, I need to find ways to de-stress.

I haven't been back to the gym yet, Elle is still in touch and waiting for me, I am more determined than ever to go back and get back into my workout routine. I'm feeling hopeful that it's possible again and I just won't give up. I can't. I have a dream of what I want and I've come so close that I can't stop now.

Patienence I guess.

Have a good day