I've lost 40 pounds since I started this journey back in February (15th). I didn't think 40 pounds was that much...I was thinking oh big deal......until I went to pick up a 40 pound dumbbell today. I had to use both hands. I couldn't even curl it. 40 pounds IS a lot. I can't imagine that I was carrying around all that weight....no wonder I was a miserable beast.

I still have a long way to go. It seems like it is taking forever. I have a horrible image in my head about the way I look. I hate the way that I think of myself. I need to change that. I really do. I owe myself so much after what I've done to my body and giving myself some self respect is long over due.

I just graduated by finishing gold level....I've lost 40 pounds in a little over 2 months. I can move now, my body is working better than it has in a long time and every day I am getting stronger, faster, firmer, and more motivated. This is good. this is me giving myself