I had a busy day today and ended up spending too much money which is why my husband isn't speaking to me right now. I didn't spend it all on myself. We have animals and kids, and animals and kids cost money. I had to go to the veterinarian to buy flea and tick meds for dogs AND cats plus allergy meds for one of the dogs. The bill was $170. Then my hair appointment cost another $90 (I had already made the appointment and couldn't really cancel it). The doctor appointment for one of the children was $25 plus HIS meds which were $35. I know I spent A LOT of money, and I know he's super mad at me right now. I understand our money situation stresses him out. I hate being the cause of that and I should be more receptive to his stress. I can't help there are things that need taking care of or that commitments come up that have to be met.....So there's not much that I can do about it now....I just hate that we don't speak and talking about it only ends in a shouting match so I'd rather just ignore each other than shout at each other......

I love him and when we are with each other and it's good, we are very good together, but when things are difficult and it's bad, we just tend to shut each other out. I used to really hate it but it's just better than the alternative. Sometimes I wonder if we would be better off with out each other, but I don't really want to leave, or have him leave. I just hate the freaking energy sucking bad vibration that goes on between us and talking only makes it worse. Counseling is not going to happen because......it's just not going to happen. So whatever.....

I used to try and talk about it and after we fought (because that's what talking denigrated into) I would just eat my way around it and deal with it that way. Since I found this place I blog and work out. (knitting and spinning is a great catharsis as well) It helps tremendously and I'm grateful for the sounding board.

So in spite of the crappy day I made good food choices and came in under the wire and got my green check anyway. I feel really good about that and I feel some sort of vindication that my crappy day didn't get the best of me.