My name is Jennifer. I am a SAM, homeschooling mother of 9. I'm also "obese". It's always fun to have the WiiFit computer voice tell me that BTW. This is a hard thing to say because I used to weigh 110 pounds. I look at those words and I am ashamed that I let myself get this way. I have always wanted instant satisfaction and when you are a grown up it's so very easy to obtain it. My life is stressful and I am not very organized so when it comes to food, pretty much anything goes. I'm paying for it in spades now. 7 years ago I went on a major weight loss campaign and I went from 185 to 150 pounds. I had also gained lots of muscle strength and mobility. Then I became pregnant and stopped doing what I had been doing before. Of course my whole intent was to go back after the baby was born. It didn't happen and I became pregnant again and almost 1 year later had another baby. I just didn't even try after that. I was much to busy doing everything that I do and didn't even remotely feel like walking/running the 5 miles I used to do.

I started homeschooling and my stress level went up a bazillion points. My solace is food and if I'm hungry I just eat whatever I want. There is no thought to consequence and I am basically too tired and stressed to care....and completely ambivalent to the mirror. Now I look awful and I feel awful. I don't make any excuses, you get what you deserve.

So here I am...my hat in my hand. I have a lot of work to do. I weighed in at the Doctor's office and I weighed 248.5 pounds. I started a eating program (South Beach) that I really like. Then I came here and weighed again and I had lost 3 pounds and was 245.

If I had maintained myself 7 years ago, it wouldn't be like this now. Now it's going to be twice as hard and take twice as long. I'm 41 now and I know this battle has to be won because I just can not ever, look and feel like this again.