I didn't get to work out until late last night...by the time I was done it was 3 a.m I felt like crap today..then I looked in the mirror this morning and I was still FAT. No wonder I was a miserable wreck. My hair looks like crap, and my favorite sweater is still too tight (although I think it's getting looser, but I can't really tell).

I'm tired of the treadmill. I want to walk outside but everything is covered in snow or frozen slush and the dirt roads that I live on are a mud pit. So I am stuck inside and no one will leave me alone.

I'm going to change my name from "mommy" to "" so no one can say it.

I was SO hungry and crabby today. All I wanted to do was eat. I wanted to eat whatever I wanted and the kids made pizza today and I wanted to eat the whole thing. I want some wings too. I'm totally not craving anything sweet...I want the good stuff.

I looked at my salad at lunch today and I loathed it. I was looking at my DH's roast beef sandwich, and I wanted that.....badly. I wanted the huge plate of nachos the server whisked by my table.....That panini that the lady sitting across from us was eating looked so good...with all the gooey cheese...my mouth watered.

But.....I ate my chicken salad....and I felt much better about my day...all of a sudden, things were looking up.