YEWTREE's CalorieKing blog
Tuesday, Jan 27 2009 - Getting real
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Have you seen my profile photo? I think I'm cute, I think that photo doesn't remind me of what I'm doing here at CK. Last week I decided to take some full figure photos to give a good idea of what my reality is at this time, reality being 209 lbs when the photos were taken. I think I often feel thin, certainly thinner than I actually am right now. These photos do not scare me, but certainly enlighten me. I think what scares me about my fat right now is when I look directly at my body. Even my shins are beginning to show pockets of fat. I think I'm over worrying about cellulite. I've had cellulite since I weight 120 lbs, and I've come to the opinion that the dimples are just not an issue. Get some fat off my veins and arteries is the issue, so my BP can come down at last. Get some fat off my heart so that I can move and breathe at the same time, that would be good.
Now The Doctors show is talking about the excess skin after weight loss. Yikes, will I be facing that? I don't know as I haven't been fat all my life and I'm losing slowly. I hope I have a chance to not be too saggy looking, because even though I do believe all the health wishes I think about, at bottom I really want to be attractive too and that too is a reason I want to lose weight.
Check out my saddle bags which I hope to put down this year.
Now The Doctors show is talking about the excess skin after weight loss. Yikes, will I be facing that? I don't know as I haven't been fat all my life and I'm losing slowly. I hope I have a chance to not be too saggy looking, because even though I do believe all the health wishes I think about, at bottom I really want to be attractive too and that too is a reason I want to lose weight.
Check out my saddle bags which I hope to put down this year.
3 comments so far.
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a decade ago
by BIGGRAMMA
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a decade ago
Hi Ursula,
I think the opposite...even at my smallest wt.....I still thought of myself as fat....(belly fat from babies) ...many times I've used that as an excuse..."I look fat no matter what"...so I'd eat.
You're cute...keep that positive attitude
by LINDA1127OLDUSERNAME
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a decade ago
Hi Ursala. I know exactly what you mean in your comment about feeling thinner than you are. So many times I read about women with poor body image, but usually they think they appear fatter/ bigger than they really are. I not sure I've heard of others admitting that they think they are thinner than in reality. I wonder if it is common or not?
Every so often, I see a photo of myself, and say who is that--before realize that the larger woman is indeed me. Or if I catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror unexpectedly, I'm startled to see the big woman looking back at me. As for cellulite, I can't even imagine life without it--I think I too even supported cellulite at 120 lbs. I wonder if that means we are just predisposed to it, lacked muscle tone at 120 lbs, or are meant to weigh even less than that??
In any case, I think you are right--very cure profile photo. But the good news is that it is REAL--you ARE cute.
by SWEETKNEE