YEWTREE's CalorieKing blog
Saturday, Jun 27 2009 - I'm so proud
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Last night was Family Night at my church, and they were showing Star Wars. Now, I haven't seen Star Wars in its entirety since its debut back in, what was it, 1979??? No, '77, but I never was right on top of latest things ....
Anyway I wanted to see Star Wars again and a chance to watch it with friends and children made this an opportunity not to be passed up (because I'm not likely to watch it by myself or en famille). Knowing there would be food aplenty, especially of the childhood-evoking, delicious types, I made a plan yesterday afternoon which was: I will make a small plate of food and enjoy it. I will not have more food. I will enjoy the event.
I was completely right about the abundance of food, but since I ate a good dinner beforehand, I passed up the pizza and chips without problem. We were a little late and by the time we got there, they were banging open a pinata, and so penny candy abounded, enough even to be thrust upon adults (see, they made me!) I had a couple of those sweet-tart chewy candies and a double bubble, then occupied my movie-watching habits with sugar-free life savers I'd tucked into my purse.
But what really got my attention, and my long-term attention, was the cookies. Of course, sugar baked into fats and flour, my nemesis! Finally -- when I thought if I didn't take a cookie, they'd soon be all gone -- I chose one, just one, blond cookie that looked homemade and like it had nuts. I broke it in half and shared with Husband! I ate it slowly, paying attention, remembering that it wouldn't last long and I must be conscious while it was in process. Alas, it was gone all too quickly, even with paying attention. I found myself, amid children running in and out and star warriors flashing their weapons, thinking of chocolate and blond cookies on the table. THEN I remembered my plan, one plate, no refills. I remembered that that was the plan I WANTED to follow. The cookie urge, the explainer in my head who knows and reminds me of all the reasons why it's ok to eat, my watering tongue and my squeezy belly, all shut up. I had decided and none of my little voices had anything else to say. I was in charge. I am the boss of me.
I am so pleased. I am so proud. I am looking forward to more success, I know it will happen!
Anyway I wanted to see Star Wars again and a chance to watch it with friends and children made this an opportunity not to be passed up (because I'm not likely to watch it by myself or en famille). Knowing there would be food aplenty, especially of the childhood-evoking, delicious types, I made a plan yesterday afternoon which was: I will make a small plate of food and enjoy it. I will not have more food. I will enjoy the event.
I was completely right about the abundance of food, but since I ate a good dinner beforehand, I passed up the pizza and chips without problem. We were a little late and by the time we got there, they were banging open a pinata, and so penny candy abounded, enough even to be thrust upon adults (see, they made me!) I had a couple of those sweet-tart chewy candies and a double bubble, then occupied my movie-watching habits with sugar-free life savers I'd tucked into my purse.
But what really got my attention, and my long-term attention, was the cookies. Of course, sugar baked into fats and flour, my nemesis! Finally -- when I thought if I didn't take a cookie, they'd soon be all gone -- I chose one, just one, blond cookie that looked homemade and like it had nuts. I broke it in half and shared with Husband! I ate it slowly, paying attention, remembering that it wouldn't last long and I must be conscious while it was in process. Alas, it was gone all too quickly, even with paying attention. I found myself, amid children running in and out and star warriors flashing their weapons, thinking of chocolate and blond cookies on the table. THEN I remembered my plan, one plate, no refills. I remembered that that was the plan I WANTED to follow. The cookie urge, the explainer in my head who knows and reminds me of all the reasons why it's ok to eat, my watering tongue and my squeezy belly, all shut up. I had decided and none of my little voices had anything else to say. I was in charge. I am the boss of me.
I am so pleased. I am so proud. I am looking forward to more success, I know it will happen!
1 comments so far.
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a decade ago
Good for you. I think you handled the evening well. Here's to future successes! have a happy 4th. Sue
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