I forgot who said it, but the saying goes, "Eighty percent of life is just showing up." So, I'm here. I had purchased a copy of the CK calorie guide a few years ago and really liked it. But then I went on a doctor-prescribed "lo-carb protein bar/shake/one normal meal diet" that was pretty structured after being diagnosed with pre-diabetes. I was a little scared and really jumped into it with both feet. I lost about 40 pounds and looked pretty good. I lost a couple of dress sizes and felt great, too. Then, I got sick of the diet routine and gradually regained about half of the weight back. My husband and I recently went to Paris to celebrate our 15th wedding anniversary. I noticed my weight gain in the photos (my profile pic was taken on the trip) and was disgusted. I seem to beat myself up so much about my weight. I live in So California where women seem to be so caught up in their looks. It's hard to live here sometimes because I feel bigger than just about everyone. I feel bigger than my actual weight. I weigh 217, but it feels like 500. I'm not sure why I feel this way, but I'd like to cut it out, lose the weight, and just be healthy once and for all. I've been on the program for six days, and I like entering all of my food into the diary. I feel like I'm more in control and not eating mindlessly. Anyway, I'm here and I could use some support. I have a stressful job at a fire department (won't name which one, but it's BIG) and think I eat emotionally. Do you do that?