ROWDYBLISS's CalorieKing blog
Tuesday, May 13 2008 - BLAH!
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Feeling kind of overall crappy. I am low on motivation lately, but today I'm hoping to change that; I've made some realizations that I think will help me get there.
First: I'm letting far too many outside influences affect my healthy lifestyle, and that has got to stop. Lack of planning (and providing contingencies) has scuppered my progress this week. For example - the weather the past few days has been dreadful (we're talking downed trees and power lines!), and so running was not an option. So what I SHOULD have done was go to the gym, right? But I didn't! Why?? I can't answer that, but that's what I should have done, and the fact of the matter is that I didn't. So that wasn't very good. I'm not beating myself up (well, maybe I am a little), but I think it's important for me to recognize this and commit myself to it in writing so it doesn't happen again.
Second: the food that is in this house. I have let myself get so overwhelmed with stuff at work that I haven't had time or energy to put into conscientious food shopping. The result? A lot of take-out, eating out (which means a lot of half-empty doggie bags) and junk food in the house. That's gotta stop, too. Although I need to remain flexible at work (and perhaps give myself more healthy choices there, too), I need to recognize when work is dominating my life and I'm losing balance. These attorneys that I work for expect me to put in the same kind of hours they do, which is idiotic because their salary is three times greater than mine is!
Oh, and a note on dining out... I have developed a love/hate relationship with restaurants. Of course, I love going somewhere and not having to cook, but at the same time I hate not knowing precisely what my portions are (hellooooo OCD!), and it makes logging the food harder later on. I've found that logging my food has been extremely reinforcing for me, and I enjoy doing it; it has become its own reward.
There are more "outside forces" I need to address, I'm sure, but I think I'll start working in earnest on these two things. Can't change everything overnight, but this is a good start.
First: I'm letting far too many outside influences affect my healthy lifestyle, and that has got to stop. Lack of planning (and providing contingencies) has scuppered my progress this week. For example - the weather the past few days has been dreadful (we're talking downed trees and power lines!), and so running was not an option. So what I SHOULD have done was go to the gym, right? But I didn't! Why?? I can't answer that, but that's what I should have done, and the fact of the matter is that I didn't. So that wasn't very good. I'm not beating myself up (well, maybe I am a little), but I think it's important for me to recognize this and commit myself to it in writing so it doesn't happen again.
Second: the food that is in this house. I have let myself get so overwhelmed with stuff at work that I haven't had time or energy to put into conscientious food shopping. The result? A lot of take-out, eating out (which means a lot of half-empty doggie bags) and junk food in the house. That's gotta stop, too. Although I need to remain flexible at work (and perhaps give myself more healthy choices there, too), I need to recognize when work is dominating my life and I'm losing balance. These attorneys that I work for expect me to put in the same kind of hours they do, which is idiotic because their salary is three times greater than mine is!
Oh, and a note on dining out... I have developed a love/hate relationship with restaurants. Of course, I love going somewhere and not having to cook, but at the same time I hate not knowing precisely what my portions are (hellooooo OCD!), and it makes logging the food harder later on. I've found that logging my food has been extremely reinforcing for me, and I enjoy doing it; it has become its own reward.
There are more "outside forces" I need to address, I'm sure, but I think I'll start working in earnest on these two things. Can't change everything overnight, but this is a good start.
2 comments so far.
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a decade ago
I am with you on the restaurants. Not having control over exactly how the food was prepared the ingredients etc has really made going out to eat more of a chore. What I would love is to have personal chef come to my house!
by LORILOVE
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a decade ago
Wow Suzanne! You are talking about me!! A fellow OCD sufferer! I know the syndrome oh so well!!!
:cross2:
Tonight I went to the grocery and got my week's supply of veggies and fruit, got'um all cleaned and ready for lunch. (Never mind that LAST WEEK'S supply went in the trash because I didn't eat them!). At least I'm ready for my upcoming week!
As you said . . . one thing at a time! Keep a food journal tomorrow. I've just got back on the wagon and find for me and my OCD, a food diary is the single most important thing to getting back on track.
Good luck!
by TATSY