Tuesday 8:47Am Today's weight 209.5

Well, this dishes are started and I have been planning my day. I am trying not to eat until I get hungry. And I am still not hungry. I covered up the Blondies I made yesterday. I know if they are out in the open, I will eat without being hungry and with out thinking.
I still have not had any pop/soda sice that sip the hubby made me take while sick. Cannot bring my self to drink it. That is a good thing. Pop makes me gassy and I get non-stop hungry when I have air in my stomach.
I am also being mindful of salt. I hate being bloated and retaining water.
I have been trying to make changes I can live with: I eat only when hungry, I cut out pop/soda (kinda happened on its own), and I am trying to eat less salt and sugar.

As for the mood. I have been kinda contemplative. Trying to acheive a kind of inner peace. I have been trying to take alot of deep breaths. And enjoy life more.

Things, I have been trying to accept are-

1. My feelings about my mom. *She called a while ago and was bummed about having nothing and being on the run. I tried to tell her to turn herself in and do what she needed to make things right, But she is not ready to. Itried to call her back but she had turned off her phone.
I have to accept that there in nothing I can do about it. I always try to tell her to do what is right.
I cannot change her and dwelling on it only makes me sad.

2. I am a bit lonely. I have changed my life a lot in the past several years. So I do not have any thing more than work acquaintances. I am also a bit unsocial in person when I am larger. I am usually a solitary creature, so in a way, I like being on my own. But every now and then. I wish I had a couple or even one gal pal. I love my hubby and he is my best friend, but it would be nice to have another female to hang with.

Anyway, I need to get my house work done. Gonna find a happy thought and go with it.

1:21Pm

I am not doing too bad. I am a bit moody and fighting to keep happy. But I am not doing too bad. I feel lazy today.