WHORLEDCRAZY's CalorieKing blog
Sunday, Apr 17 2011 - something for myself
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I have a huge family.....I don't get a lot of "something for myself". I'm not talking about material things. I'm talking about the fact that I'm so used to passing out love to everybody I forget to keep something for myself.
I forget sometimes why it is that i'm working so hard to get rid of this weight. I'm writing that and I think about how I literally work my ass of everyday working out at least 2 hours a day and still I make choices that set me back. So how in the hell can I forget how hard it is to work off the pounds? In a split second I make decisions that only make it harder for me to accomplish what it is I'm setting out to do.
I'm talking about the fact that I binged on movie popcorn, and Reese's Pieces at the movies. (btw...if you like suspense /action/ spy movies go see Hannah) I work so damned hard everyday to take this weight off to keep it off and I go and do something so totally stupid. Then I came home and ate some more (pickles and potato chips). I had spent 3 hours in the gym just that afternoon drenched in sweat keeping myself in line, knocking out my exercise commitments.
The next night I devoured a basket of chips and the salsa to go with it. Why why why???? I did it to, knowing what it was, what it meant for my body and how it would affect me. I don't get it.
The consequences? I didn't loose an ounce this week. So stupid. That hasn't happened to me at all since I started this back in February.
I know I have absolutely no grounds to complain. I did this to myself and I'm owning that. I just don't know why I would choose to make those decisions that hinder me from reaching my goals. I used to complain about not being able to do something for myself. Now that I am, I am dissing myself by making bad choices. It's like I'm setting myself up to fail because I REFUSE (notice I didn't say "can't" ) to control my impulsive eating.
Absolutely. Incredibly. Ridiculous. No wonder I look like a water buffalo on the treadmill.
I forget sometimes why it is that i'm working so hard to get rid of this weight. I'm writing that and I think about how I literally work my ass of everyday working out at least 2 hours a day and still I make choices that set me back. So how in the hell can I forget how hard it is to work off the pounds? In a split second I make decisions that only make it harder for me to accomplish what it is I'm setting out to do.
I'm talking about the fact that I binged on movie popcorn, and Reese's Pieces at the movies. (btw...if you like suspense /action/ spy movies go see Hannah) I work so damned hard everyday to take this weight off to keep it off and I go and do something so totally stupid. Then I came home and ate some more (pickles and potato chips). I had spent 3 hours in the gym just that afternoon drenched in sweat keeping myself in line, knocking out my exercise commitments.
The next night I devoured a basket of chips and the salsa to go with it. Why why why???? I did it to, knowing what it was, what it meant for my body and how it would affect me. I don't get it.
The consequences? I didn't loose an ounce this week. So stupid. That hasn't happened to me at all since I started this back in February.
I know I have absolutely no grounds to complain. I did this to myself and I'm owning that. I just don't know why I would choose to make those decisions that hinder me from reaching my goals. I used to complain about not being able to do something for myself. Now that I am, I am dissing myself by making bad choices. It's like I'm setting myself up to fail because I REFUSE (notice I didn't say "can't" ) to control my impulsive eating.
Absolutely. Incredibly. Ridiculous. No wonder I look like a water buffalo on the treadmill.
3 comments so far.
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a decade ago
My husband thinks I should be bringing some cut-up veggies to the movies with me. It makes complete sense. Next time I will. I know you're not suppossed to bring in outside food, but whatever. Are you guys gonna tell on me?
thanks so much for encouraging me. It helps me not to be so hard on myself and I realize that it isn't the end of the world. It's just that it's so stupid that I work so hard then trun around and undo it all. GAH!
by WHORLEDCRAZY
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a decade ago
Hey there - been there done that- will do it again I am sure. First of all, you do not look like a water buffalo on the treadmill!! You are rocking at the gym. You are tired, you are not sleeping well, movies are touch. I personally can't fully appreciate a movie with out the popcorn and chips and salsa , I haven't figured out why sometimes I can do it in moderation and sometimes I can't; but I would bet it has something to do with how tired we are and how depleted of energy, sometimes food is the easiest way to "gas up"".
Hope your week goes better, don't be so hard on yourself. I bet you wouldn't be that hard on one of your kids if they had been studying really, really, really hard, the when it came to the test made a few careless mistakes on a test! Mother your fit self !
by KRISTENB
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a decade ago
I don't have much advice, but I'm cheering for you... you could try viewing these situations/events as practice runs - using them to brainstorm how to prevent them in the future...
Also, with workouts that hard, you may be extra hungry which doesn't help manage the cravings - could you adjust the workouts a bit so you aren't having to go at SO hard?
by LYNNABEL