Gotta figure out what the freak is going on. I worked my ass off this week literally and gained a pound. My eating hasn't been clean I know but it hasn't been awful either.....nothing that I think would warrant a 1.4 pound gain......I ate a lot of salt the last two days it maybe water retention..I just don't think salt would do that. I know it's not hormonal...that's done until the middle of July.

I've dropped another size and my clothes are still getting bigger.....in the past two weeks I've gained, not lost. I'm starting to get a little freaked because since February these have been my only two gains.

I'm really upset with myself right now. I'm puffy today, my rings are kind of tight maybe it's just bloat? I hate that excuse. It's so dumb. I don't know. What I'm going to do I think is try to hydrate then re-weigh on Wednesday. Meanwhile, I'll lay off the salt and see if that helps.

The other thing I can do is re-work my exercise routine throw something new into it. I've been neglecting ab work and I really need to work on this belly. I started running again and even upped my biking distance. I could do with some more weight training.

This week I have got to eat totally clean. That's my goal. I'm not going to worry about the scale right now. I'm just going to eat totally clean and see what happens.

I hate stalling like this. I hate that I'm trending upwards instead of downwards. I hate failure. I hate that I did this to myself . I hate it.