WHORLEDCRAZY's CalorieKing Blog
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Tuesday, March 22nd 2011
This picture on my blog entry was taken last fall. I was at a Shakespeare festival doing a spinning demo. I had to send in my measurements to have it made. I didn't realize how freaking big I was until I saw the pictures. Just looking at them now makes me wince with embarrassment.....I hate posting them. But I am doing it because I need to see what I am changing. Hopefully it will give me resolve. A purpose of amendment.Maybe it will help me with self loathing...because right now....
clothes and self image
Monday, March 21st 2011
My clothes are fitting better and better. I am starting to pull clothes out of the back of my closet that I couldn't wear anymore. They are still "fat" clothes but they are fitting because I'm loosing weight and soon the "fat" clothes will be too big and I will never have to wear them again. They can get lost along with all the extra weight.I feel so much better about myself....but I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror and I feel sick. I just can't believe that ...
I can really do this!
Saturday, March 19th 2011
It's been a month since I started my journey back to Sane-ville. My start weight was 248 pounds. I needed to loose 118 pounds to get to my goal of 130.I weighed myself today and I've lost 22 pounds. It's not all in my head, I'm not imagining it. It really is happening and I don't think I have to walk on egg shells anymore wondering if it's working. At least I know my scale doesn't lie (THAT much). It's working. It's working. It's working. I can do this.
I know that's it's n...
It's not the end of the world.
Thursday, March 17th 2011
So I totally bombed this day....I ate three slices of pizza with my children, went to dinner with my BFF and then slammed back the chips and salsa (no alcohol and I did have a chicken salad @ 370 calories) and then went to Orange Leaf Frozen Yogurt and had that.......I am SO afraid to weigh myself.Still.....I don't feel guilty. Is that a bad thing? I'm not making excuses either...I know it's a total lack of self discipline and I own it completely. So I'm just going to move on and deal ...
It's working!
Wednesday, March 16th 2011
My fat girl jeans that used to be really tight and wouldn't stay up because my gut was so big are now falling down because I have no gut to hold them up. They are loose in the bottom and the waist is too large. I don't want to buy another pair because I want to wait until they are "un-wearable" but I might cave and buy a pair that complement my shape better.My knitting teacher told me she sees a difference and my MIL was actually surprised to see me shaped up. At last, I know...