Seems like I mostly blog when I am frustrated. when things aren't so great.
Last time I blogged was over a month ago now. Since then I have had one week..
YES ONE WEEK ONLY. of health.
I got over my 3 week bad cold and then a week later ( a good week of being in the gym almost daily), and then I pop up with this stupid PLUERISY....
So now sick again since then.....
the doctor says this takes time..the recovery takes time...lots of time...lots of rest.lots of NSAIDS,rest and pain medication.....
well I thought that meant a week or so....
NOw its been almost 4 weeks...still cannot do any time of cardio. Actually cannot even do regular life well yet.
I am really trying ot focus on watching what I eat atleast....
NOt going over on caloires....
ITs so hard when all you can do is sit and well, REST. .....no caloire expendeture really.....
I just want to get better.
I am trying so hard to hang tight....but all the weight I worked so hard to loose....slowly kreeping back since my surg in June....rest july aug....sep bad cold, now pleurisy...IN June I weighed 153...on my way to 135...now I am back to 185.....I am so disgusted....so saddended.....but I know this will end eventually.
I have to get better eventually.
I just need to find it withen myself to stay strong as I continue to endure this....
I am also on a medication that causes weight gain. I am on a high dose. When I worked out daily I was able to combat its effects, but ever since I have stopped, welll...the results are obvious...
OK....
enough.
I will now get on with my day in a better mood, I will remember that I can choose my nutriton. I will stay withen my calorie targets. I will drink lots of water and take my vitamens. I will stay strong in my faith...I know there is a reason, a purpose for all I have gone through this year. I will cling to that. I will be the best MOM, wife, and Friend that I can be and continue to look forward to good health.

thanks to anyone who listened to that...I just needed to write out my feelings.