A quote about life.
"Without the cracks the light couldn't shine in"

......My life has not been the easist lately...this quote that my CK buddy Miriam posted stuck in my mind.
When the "bottom" falls out, or the problms, i.e. cracks, in life come...here is another way to view it...

Then this quote along with what my friend Tracey posted yesterday in our daily thread:

Do you really know what you're made of?

It's easy to stay true to our values when life is sunny. But because sometimes hope disappears, options run out, and bright days can turn dark, all you can really count on to be there is your own inner strength. These low points are chances to learn what you're capable of when you refuse to be knocked down for good. You may not be able to choose your hardships or options. But you do have the power to face what you're given with high character. Trust yourself and your instincts, and your best will come forward. Think about the last time you had the choice to fold under pressure or to rise to the occasion. How might you have handled it a little differently? If there's room for improvement, what actions would have made you more proud of yourself?



This got me thinking that about how We have a CHOICE in every situation...however grim, or dim, it seems.....there is always that light shining through. Some of the about I don't as a christian agree with (I DON"T THINK HOPE EVER DISAPREARS)...but it got me thinking....
I do always have HOPE in every situation.. that is something that with CHrist in my life I can never ever loose. THANK YOU GOD for that. Thank you that no matter how rough life seems I have a choice to view it through your eyes....
You love me. I know that without a doubt when I stop to take the time to think.
I have the CHOICE to see my life as it truley is...my purpose on life is
to GLORIFY YOU...
not to be always nececsarily happy, but to be at PEACE, with forever contsant HOPE, because you have given me that GIFT.....
SO there is a much better way to view all that has been going on in the last year...the situation now with Jack...
my pleurisy..
I may not understand...but You don't say I have to understand...I just have to TRUST that you have an ultimate plan for me....
I can choose to learn from these low points, lean on YOur strength and look forward...My attitude would be grately improved in this situation if I viewed it through different "lens", the lens of living my life to GLORIFY YOU IN ALL THAT I DO.....
I commit to learn from this situation, to search out your message to me, to strive to TRUST....
to find the LIGHT THROUGH THE CRACKS!!!!!
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Jack update.......
HE seems to be improving....HIs neck still doesn't have full range of motion. But when you make him he can now hold his shoulders straight. NO major headaches since Sunday.....So I am happy with that. A little less scared. I really am thinking that the original diagnosis of muscle spasm..from inflammation....related to the strep infection over a week ago... is correct. THANK YOU LORD!!!! I was so freaked....man when they started talking mass in the head??? CTs, sticking an IV in him....my little man was such a trooper...He did so great at the hospital!!!
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Pleurisy update.....................
I am now at a point that as long as I am resting and not doing anything it almost doesn't hurt.
If i do much it does hurt, but not taking strong pain meds anymore. Shortness of breath only comes when I really overdue now... SO I really think I am starting to improve... STill SO FRUSTRATED....but trying to focus on the fact that there is some REASON.....I know GOD has a PLAN for me.....
LIGHT THROUGH THE CRACKS ERIKA!!! LOOK AT THE LIGHT!!!!!
THe glorious light!
Lets talk about all the wonderful things you do have ERika....
An adoring, amazing husband that is just more amazing by the day!
Three beautiful children.
Wonderfully supportive and helpful parents and inlaws...
A great group of friends that have helped us so much!!!!!!
A great prospect for a new job!!---so needed right now, we are beyond broke with me out of work right now....THis new job seems so perfect. so just perfect!!!