Last night I bottomed out emotionally. It was a combination of very stressful week and lack of sleep the night before. Anyway I went to the frig and opened the door and started looking for a toxic combination of food I could eat to make me feel “better”. Fortunately, I don’t have much quick comfort food left in my house. I did a cleaning over the weekend and got rid of all the crap that has kept me from achieving my goals. All I could find was small amount of ground turkey meat that had been cooked with taco seasoning. I ate it.

Now it wasn’t the best thing I could have eaten but I would have done so much worse a couple of weeks ago. A couple of weeks ago I would have gotten in my car, drove to the nearest drive-thru and super-sized me! The motivators that kept me from it last night were I was so tired from working out I really didn’t want to use the energy it would have taken to get to the car and I thought about all that work I have been doing in the gym. I also want to look really good if I should run into a couple of people that I have dated in the past. I guess motivators don’t always have to be wrapped up in the best of intentions they just have to work.

Tomorrow is going to be a tough day for me. I have to travel several hours, sit in the hospital while my dad has heart surgery, one or two stents placed in blocked arteries. I’m coming back home tomorrow when it’s over. So that will be a total of 8 hours of driving tomorrow. My plan is to walk around hospital during the procedure. More worried about eating tomorrow. My plan is to take a cooler full of snacks and eat at places that I know serve a healthy option for lunch and dinner. I’ll report back later.