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Thursday, Sep 1 2011 - Fall Down, Get Back Up...Still falling..
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So, I've always heard that it takes 3 consistent weeks of doing something to make it start to become a habit. I had returned to CK, was highly motivated. Lost some pounds fast, and then in the middle of my third week I had a trip out of the country for a wedding. I was excited to go to Aruba, but nervous because I knew that I would not be able to stay on track. I have some much extended family there that everytime I went to someone's house they were urging me to eat. The island is kind of poor and so when someone offers you food, that's about all they have to offer you. So if you say no, you are actually disrespecting them.
So I ate...reluctantly. Came back and gained 6 pounds but was actually able to lose it all within a week and a half. The only problem is that since I've been back I've fluctuated back and forth. I lose 4, gain 3, lose 1, gain 2. etc. It's so frustrating that I haven't been able to consistently track food or do any sort of calorie burn. I find myself running in circles and not really making much progress. Towards the end of this month, I have a doctor's appt and they have told me that I need to lose weight or else. I'm not sure what the "or else" is, but I can tell you that I refuse to go on medication. So now, I have 3.5 weeks to start showing some signs of focus and lose some weight. Is it realistic to lose 18 pounds by 9/26? But then what? Will I keep fluctuating or will it actually stick? I'm clouded with so many emotions and feel a bit overwhelmed. I know that I need to get healthy. Others around me tell me that I'm fine, but I know that I'm unhealthy and I'm not okay with that. Just finding the time in a day is just such a problem. Add in that I return to grad school for my 4th semester on 9/12 and my free time has just about disappeared.
I turn 30 in December and I definitely do not want to be a 300 pounder anymore as I enter this next phase of life. Whatever I do between now and end of the month, I need to make sure that I can maintain so that I can get as far away from 300 as possible.
So I ate...reluctantly. Came back and gained 6 pounds but was actually able to lose it all within a week and a half. The only problem is that since I've been back I've fluctuated back and forth. I lose 4, gain 3, lose 1, gain 2. etc. It's so frustrating that I haven't been able to consistently track food or do any sort of calorie burn. I find myself running in circles and not really making much progress. Towards the end of this month, I have a doctor's appt and they have told me that I need to lose weight or else. I'm not sure what the "or else" is, but I can tell you that I refuse to go on medication. So now, I have 3.5 weeks to start showing some signs of focus and lose some weight. Is it realistic to lose 18 pounds by 9/26? But then what? Will I keep fluctuating or will it actually stick? I'm clouded with so many emotions and feel a bit overwhelmed. I know that I need to get healthy. Others around me tell me that I'm fine, but I know that I'm unhealthy and I'm not okay with that. Just finding the time in a day is just such a problem. Add in that I return to grad school for my 4th semester on 9/12 and my free time has just about disappeared.
I turn 30 in December and I definitely do not want to be a 300 pounder anymore as I enter this next phase of life. Whatever I do between now and end of the month, I need to make sure that I can maintain so that I can get as far away from 300 as possible.
1 comments so far.
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a decade ago
Deep breath and just refocus. Start from stage one again. It is so hard to get back on track when you tripped a few times and the yo yo gain/loss makes it hard. But I find if I go back to my starting steps I fall right back in to the routine I need to be in.
by MRSDSB