I'm having the hardest time managing my health. I've been fluctuating back and forth with gains and losses since August. I'll lose 15, then gain it back; it's a vicious cycle that I can't seem to stop. I've made excuses in the past for my lack of available free time. How can I manage my day when I wake up at 6am to go straight to work, followed by school at night and arriving home at 10pm? Where in the world is there time for a workout?

If I'm not working out, then my food consumption needs to be top notch. But yet, I have the hardest time eating clean. I refuse to eat fast food, yet I still end up making horrible decisions. I cook and then become way too complacent to eat the food that I've cooked. I struggle to wake up in the morning and find myself running out of the house to get to work so I don't take food that I've cooked.

I know that in reality this takes a lot of discipline and while I've been able to show that discipline in other facets of life in the past, I can't seem to stay focused enough for now. This is beyond frustrating and is truly affecting other aspects of life just because I'm in this mental limbo.