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Wednesday, Jun 20 2007 - reflections
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mirrors
they dont lie
but they can fool you
sometimes
especially when you
are alone
at home
its there
where we see
what we want to see
not what is really there
its alone
when we see our profile
and think
well thats not too bad
and for the moment
we believe
its ok to be this size
and then we go out
it doesnt matter where
just anywhere
where a mirror
a window perhaps
reflects our image
and we see what
everyone else can see
and its not pretty
outside
where the thin people live
and the healthy people walk
is where i finally see
truth in my reflection
and truth in their reflections
because side by side
you cant hide
the difference between me
and everyone else
and so i look away
and cringe
at the image
i pretended didnt exist
but it does
and everyone sees it but me
until now
for years
I got away with it
being chubby
being overweight
by hiding the 60
make that 100 pounds extra
with black cloaks and
flattering cuts
i looked good
i kept up
i wasnt ashamed
of the reflections
i saw in the mirrors
anytime i walked by
but now
my silhouette
can block the sun
and prevents the world
from seeing who i really am
because i am at a place
where you cant see me any more
and even the reflections
i see alone
at home
arent pleasing
and dont fool me
into believing
that i look good
because no one thinks that
anymore
especially me
mirrors
not the ones to our souls
not the ones that let people
know there is a good person
behind the eyes
of the heavy lady
sitting on the train
not the ones
that show
the kindness
beneath the feet
of the woman
struggling to catch her breath
as she climbs the stairs
those mirrors
are hidden behind
the volume of excess weight
that no one can ever see beyond
because it is too hard to look
reflections
of a woman who let herself go
and wants herself back
and knows she will get there
so all the world can see
the good person she is
inside and out
the time is now
they dont lie
but they can fool you
sometimes
especially when you
are alone
at home
its there
where we see
what we want to see
not what is really there
its alone
when we see our profile
and think
well thats not too bad
and for the moment
we believe
its ok to be this size
and then we go out
it doesnt matter where
just anywhere
where a mirror
a window perhaps
reflects our image
and we see what
everyone else can see
and its not pretty
outside
where the thin people live
and the healthy people walk
is where i finally see
truth in my reflection
and truth in their reflections
because side by side
you cant hide
the difference between me
and everyone else
and so i look away
and cringe
at the image
i pretended didnt exist
but it does
and everyone sees it but me
until now
for years
I got away with it
being chubby
being overweight
by hiding the 60
make that 100 pounds extra
with black cloaks and
flattering cuts
i looked good
i kept up
i wasnt ashamed
of the reflections
i saw in the mirrors
anytime i walked by
but now
my silhouette
can block the sun
and prevents the world
from seeing who i really am
because i am at a place
where you cant see me any more
and even the reflections
i see alone
at home
arent pleasing
and dont fool me
into believing
that i look good
because no one thinks that
anymore
especially me
mirrors
not the ones to our souls
not the ones that let people
know there is a good person
behind the eyes
of the heavy lady
sitting on the train
not the ones
that show
the kindness
beneath the feet
of the woman
struggling to catch her breath
as she climbs the stairs
those mirrors
are hidden behind
the volume of excess weight
that no one can ever see beyond
because it is too hard to look
reflections
of a woman who let herself go
and wants herself back
and knows she will get there
so all the world can see
the good person she is
inside and out
the time is now
7 comments so far.
7.
a decade ago
Bravo....yes the mirror doesn lie when we are alone. But the last stanza did it for me. of a woman who let herself go and wants herself back. Thanks
by PEANUT
6.
a decade ago
by JUSTPATTI
5.
a decade ago
You put into words, as Vicki said, what many of us feel but can't express. There are mirrors all over the gym, and every time I'm sitting dead on looking into one, I try not to look, preferably to hang my head down. Learning to love yourself, your reflection, with all the evidence of your "sin" showing to all the world, is very hard. Learning to see the beauty within each and every one of us for ourselves.
:love:
by BUN201
4.
a decade ago
Great one today. It has taken me decades to accept what I looked like at my heaviest. It is only recently that the mirror is no longer my arch enemy. The mirror is not our soul. It only a one dimensional view of a three dimensional human being.
:love:
Sandra
by SANDGEE
3.
a decade ago
I still have a hard time looking at myself(from the waist down) in the mirror. We need to realize that God thinks we are beautiful.
by DAWNNSCOTT
2.
a decade ago
Your thoughts today brought tears to my eyes today. I remember the first time I saw the REAL me, in all my overweight glory. It was a photo at my parents 50th Wedding Anniversary party. At first glance, I thought who is that woman talking to my mother in the pic. And the the total shock to realize it was ME. Thank you for sharing this for all of us who feel it and could not put it into words the way you do.
:love:
by LUCKYDUCK2
1.
a decade ago
by BIGGRAMMA