another good day under my belt. it is too soon to say the worst is behind me, but i feel great about the direction i am going. i weighed myself this morning (i know i have to stop doing that) and I am back to my lowest weight (since I began this journey), so i have already reaped a reward from 2 days of good behavior. imagine if i get a few hundred good days behind me? oh the possibilities are endless.

i just watched the view. i haven't watched it since rosie was ousted. i like whoopi and i hope she brings back credibility to the show. i'll watch it occasionally now, but i have lost all respect for barbara walters. she has the backbone of a snake. and her rosie dig today, was just not necessary. ok no more on that topic..

i have a few errands to run today and i am looking forward to being very busy.
a rant: you know what really makes my blood boil? the commercials for weight loss programs and products that use the words "easy" and suggest that going from a size 10 to a size 4 is a good thing!! they feed the pervasive attitude that very thin is what you want to be --- not healthy and not vibrant. just very thin. an unless you are the tiniest of people, most of us will never be and should never be a size 4. since when did size 10 become a bad thing? i just don't understand.


today
i am back
on the right road
getting back to me
making my way
back to the me
that i want to be
happy,
energetic,
motivated,
dedicated,
to losing weight
getting healthy
doing things for me
again

today
i leave some
of my past
behind me
i am sure it is
not gone for good
but for now
i will be positive
and think good things
and believe in me
and the strength
i have inside me

today
i take back
my life
and the ways
of success
trusting my judgment
faith
in the process
and my ability
to stick to a plan
the plan
to be healthy
really healthy

i am not almost there
i am just beginning
i have lost some weight
but i have a 1000
tomorrows to challenge me
and then some
so the task
at hand
is not just to make it
through the day
but to learn how to
make it through my life
and make this journey
a destination
i can live with forever

today
i am focused
on commitment
and energizing
re-energizing
my gut
my instinct
that tells me
i have to do this
that reminds me
i must do this
that shoulders me
when i falter
that saves me
when i can't go on
or think i can't
because now
i know i can

today
i am back
to the self
i like the best
the ego
that is modest
but determined
the attitude
that is crisp
and clear
the person
that is human
who doesn't expect
miracles, but
who aims for the stars
just in case
dreams really can
come true
yes, now
i believe they will

back to me
back to a future
i am looking forward to
back to can do and
fears not and
can't stop me now
the energy
can you feel it?
it is in every step i take
every goal i set
every mountain i climb
and i won't let it go
this time
at least for a while
until i need you
to lift my spirits
again
and you will
because i promise
i will always come back
to me

i found myself wandering
i wasn't exactly lost
i just didn't know where i was

note: for some reason i couldn't get back on calorie king for a few hours on any of my computers so i don't think the problem was on my end. anyway, i am glad i wrote my blog in a word document first otherwise i would have lost it...

the photo: i keep telling you i have naturally curly hair, well here is proof. this photo was taken about 11 years ago at a luau (hence the flower in my hair and fake leis around our necks). i am with (who else but) marianne.