WILLLOSEIT's CalorieKing blog
Thursday, Jun 5 2008 - a sign of the times
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i feel old now
every bone aches
every step i take seems labored
i look in the mirror
and see a vision
not of splendor
puffy eyes
swollen ankles
tight fitting clothes
a waist long gone
curvy, no longer
just a body
too big for
the legs it stands on
i fear death
more than ever now
my heart,
should not beat
as it does
rapidly,
irregularly
every pound gained
punishing
every calorie overeaten
attacking
every walk not taken
a requiem
to the choices
i never should have made
but remarkably hopeful
i do remain
for without that
i could not face
another day
i still believe
i am capable of changing
i still believe
i have so very much
to give
i still desire
to be better than i am
i still dream
of tomorrow
and the day after that
all is not lost
my time
it has not come
my glory
it is waiting
for me
down the path
not of least resistance
but the one
with blind spots
and sharp turns
the rutted road
that has taken me
to this place
with one foot
in front of the other
i keep going
it's all i can do
and everything i am
my time
is
somewhere up ahead
yes, i know it is....
every bone aches
every step i take seems labored
i look in the mirror
and see a vision
not of splendor
puffy eyes
swollen ankles
tight fitting clothes
a waist long gone
curvy, no longer
just a body
too big for
the legs it stands on
i fear death
more than ever now
my heart,
should not beat
as it does
rapidly,
irregularly
every pound gained
punishing
every calorie overeaten
attacking
every walk not taken
a requiem
to the choices
i never should have made
but remarkably hopeful
i do remain
for without that
i could not face
another day
i still believe
i am capable of changing
i still believe
i have so very much
to give
i still desire
to be better than i am
i still dream
of tomorrow
and the day after that
all is not lost
my time
it has not come
my glory
it is waiting
for me
down the path
not of least resistance
but the one
with blind spots
and sharp turns
the rutted road
that has taken me
to this place
with one foot
in front of the other
i keep going
it's all i can do
and everything i am
my time
is
somewhere up ahead
yes, i know it is....
9 comments so far.
9.
a decade ago
by BIGGRAMMA
8.
a decade ago
None of us are alone in this sweetie! How are you today?
:kiss:
by MOM22SONZ
7.
a decade ago
I am right there with you Grace, undoing the good work I had done.
:bang: The hardest day is the first one, each day is getting easier again, and already I feel less swollen and bloated. One foot in front of the other is right. One step at a time. Just take the first one. We are here for you, all together. Hang in there! 
:hi:
:heart1:
by TREE
6.
a decade ago
by JUSTPATTI
5.
a decade ago
Oh Grace, everything doesn't change in a day. Just make small changes and you'll hopefully feel better and more hopeful soon. Love yourself like others love you.
by MEDIASUE
4.
a decade ago
Grace you are stronger than you think--hang in there girl you can accomplish you goals I have faith in you
:kiss: Hope you have a wonderful weekend
:heart2:
by TEXSKH05
3.
a decade ago
All is not lost! You can and you will do this, Grace. WE can do this, Grace. No, you aren't alone. You got lots of buddies ...just turn around and look..right there behind you, beside, and some in front beckoning you on....
:love: 
:kiss:
by BUN201
2.
a decade ago
by BIGGRAMMA
1.
a decade ago
Oh my dear. Take a look at the flower in my blog and have a mini-vacation. Take care and you are not alone.
by PEANUT