LYNNABEL's CalorieKing Blog
Thursday, July 17th 2008
I keep starting a journal entry, and then giving up. As if not having a crisis of the soul means theres nothing to write about.This week has been up and down for me, emotionally. Ive been highly irritated at times, and very content at times. Im getting the hang of regrouping after a bad experience with the kids. Rather than making grandiose resolutions or spending hours self-analyzing, Im reviewing, planning, and letting go. Its helping me get back to where I want to be quicker.
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Tuesday, July 8th 2008
I have a mental image of a body builder flexing her biceps and blowing on them. Thats how I feel after the last 84 hours alone with Will and Ellen. It was so empowering. And intense. So often I thought, I want to write about this, but what little personal time I had I wanted to use for other things. I was calm, mostly serene, fun, and active. It wasnt perfect Will had to have some timeouts/quiet times and Ellen did her usual poor sleeping, but I navigated it successfully.I really ap...
Wednesday, July 2nd 2008
Ive been thinking lately about the amount and types of guilt I feel, and wondering what to do about them.My biggest sense of guilt right now is about Ellens lack of sleeping through the night and how it impacts Steve. Steve doesnt do or say anything to make me feel guilty about this, its entirely self-generated, but it makes me defensive and frustrated. Why is it just easier to suffer yourself through something than have someone else do it for you? Is this a characteristic of wo...
Friday, June 27th 2008
In reading about Tori being tired, I remember something I did last weekend when Steve was out of town and I was by myself with my babies.I put Ellen on a play mat on the rug in the living room, took a pillow off the couch, and layed down by her, with my arm over her legs to snuggle with her. The doors were locked, and Will was playing with his CD player in his room (he likes reggae and folk songs!), and I, honest to God, dozed. On the ground, in bright sunlight. It was light dozing, and I ...
Friday, June 20th 2008
Will eats banana and piece of toast for breakfast every morning in his high chair and I talk at him or myself. I love our mornings together. This morning I heard a siren, and said, "That siren is ridiculous. Its going to wake Ellen up." Will thought about it, and said "Si-wen dick-less" and I couldn't stop laughing. He's probably right.I have a pet peeve with sirens and motorcycles. Both are just ludicrously loud. Even if I didn't have sleeping children, it would bother...