LYNNABEL's CalorieKing Blog
Saturday, August 13th 2005
159 today. Not too bad - I had been gaining about 4 pounds per month for a while now, and this last month it was only 3. Perhaps my gaining is slowing a bit. Either way, that makes 29 pounds gained so far, and I'm just finishing week 28. If I can stay at no more than 1 lb per week from here on out, I'll be more than fine. Especially since the weight gain seems to stagnate during the last 3-4 weeks. We'll see. Either way, I won't be over 40lb gained, I don't think, which is just fine. 5 lbs per m...Friday, August 12th 2005
Work has been crazy this week - no CK time or journal time.My dad made me cry on the phone last night. He told me very casually that his hands had been shaking so badly that he couldn\'t write at times so he went to the doctor who drew blood. The results were in when he got home and it doesn\'t appear to be anything physical or neurological. Apparently they figured out that it is anxiety based. It broke my heart to think of my father even a little anxious, much less to the point of shaking...
Tuesday, August 9th 2005
Am feeling the need for a retreat into my journal.My family left this morning. It was wonderful to have them here.
But. I downloaded my pictures from my camera to the computer and I am crying about how I look. I don't understand why the camera has such an effect on me. I feel beautiful and glow-y when I'm in my own skin, but when I see the way a picture captures me it makes me cry. I look so awful in pictures. I'm upset both because I look fat and awful to myself but also because it a...
Wednesday, August 3rd 2005
I can't sleep. Its 5am and I've been tossing since about 4. Lots on my mind - thinking about the baby and life and my parents visiting and everything.I started producing colostrum last night. Well - I think I've been producing some before last night, but last night was when I realized what it was. S pointed it out and said he'd noticed something in the past but wasn't sure if it was leaking or not. Sure enough. I explained to him that it was colostrum, not mature milk, and that I won't pro...