LYNNABEL's CalorieKing Blog
Tuesday, July 19th 2005
Just finished my walk with Ripple and some very mild morning weights. It felt wonderful. Better shoe choice tomorrow, but this may just work!***
Last night I asked S about working on the bed. He was only too happy to agree. So, there's my ask/state my need/want for yesterday.
It was freezing last night - incredible the swings in temperature we get here in MN.
Monday, July 18th 2005
Well, joy may not come in the morning, but a bit of calm, at least. I feel drained. I cried myself to sleep to and woke up with puffy eyes. I get so angry when I feel that way - angry at S, angry at myself, at the world. Its never seriously occurred to me before that I might have anger management issues, but perhaps I do. The thing, though, is that I rarely take this anger out on anyone else, so it only ends up hurting me. Which could be good or bad depending on how you look at it.
I think the...
Sunday, July 17th 2005
I had a thought the other day that I wanted to write down to see if it held. S mentioned that he read somewhere that the woman race driver, Danica Something, who is having such a good racing season had been offered millions to pose for Playboy. I thought about it. I several reactions - one being, good lord, can't a woman do anything without being asked to get naked? And then I thought - no, wait - why can't or shouldn't she show/use/explore/exploit her sexuality? Its hers, after all. What bother...Friday, July 15th 2005
It is just before six. Tibby woke me up at the usual 5:30am and I couldn't get back to sleep. My back is hurting again this morning. I'm paranoid about every twinge being a contraction now from my appointment yesterday. I guess this was the appointment they tell you to watch out for pre term labor because everyone asked if I had had any contractions. I said that I didn't think so but since I didn't know what they felt like, it was hard to say. I described the stretchy cramps and the back pain bu...Thursday, July 14th 2005
I've had a bit of a rough morning but thanks to my loving husband and wise women friends on the CK Preggers Thread - I'm feeling less dramatically full of dispair. I'd laugh if I could - not so much at how I feel - but the dimensions of it - the crocodile tears the feelings cause are almost theatrical. I'm so thankful at how thoughtful and considerate and kind people can be to a crying pregnant woman, including Rosa and Marta who seem to be sending me wonderful vibes from far away. 
I'll...