LYNNABEL's CalorieKing Blog
Sunday, June 12th 2005
It is way too beautiful to be inside right now, but I wanted to jot a few thoughts before going back out on to the deck to read.We spent some time with our wonderful neighbhors last night and it was lots of fun. I need that kind of social interaction every once in a while. S can live without it, but I can't. Its too bad because people like him so much - I mean, they really enjoy his company. He's out with two friends right now which is good - at a park.
Ripple did SO well with Tony's ...
Friday, June 10th 2005
Wah. Crazy at work. Crazy. Yesterday I was discouraged - today I feel energized by it. The roller coaster that is my heart and mind.Walnut is 19 weeks old today. I feel him/her kick or move often.
Need to catch up personal emails.
Saturday, June 4th 2005
Had a rough morning with panic attacks and weepiness. I did have a few revelations about it unlike last weekend. Here they are:a) I can't run away and have some me time because I'm pregnant. As much as drinking and smoking are unhealthy they did provide very necessary outlets for my mind that I needed (still do) to keep some kind of even keel. Reading used to provide some outlet but usually only in combination with something else - my attention span has plummeted since getting pregnant, th...
Monday, May 30th 2005
Its 3am and I just lost pages of a journal entry.***
10 minute journal update. Can't believe I lost everything I wrote this morning. It made me think though - was/is anything I write so valuable that losing it is a huge universal loss? No. Doesn't mean it isn't important, to me, but the sky didn't fall and I doubt future generations will be poorer for the loss of that one entry. Additionally, it was a reflection on Saturday's panic attacks and thoughts and we could all probably live w...
Friday, May 27th 2005
I have tried to start a journal entry several times and just can't. I keep going back to my actual work. This isn't because my work is so terribly interesting, but I think its because work is the only thing getting my energy right now. I only have so much to go around, and work is getting all of it. I don't know that that is right, but it is necessary at this point.Life at home is wonderful - sweet and gentle and passionate. I asked S last night to please help remind me to drink more water...