I may add to this later on if I have time and emotional energy.

I just spent an 45 minutes or so telling S about nearly everything I've been thinking and journaling about lately relating to work and self imagine. I spent the day today at the conference and found it very difficult - I experienced that I call panic attacks (they don't quite have the highened anxiety as much as profound discomfort and depression), and it was due in part to wirling thoughts about career and observations of the way I interact and feel about people in work situations (personal too, I suppose, but I haven't had that in while, so I'm focusing on work relationships).

It was helpful to me to talk it out to him. He listened and while he didn't specifically offer any insight into my thoughts, he told me that he thought taking the WomenVenture class was a great idea and that he loved me very much. He listened and paid attention and absorbed my information, and I appreciate that. I will record as much as I can of my conversation with him/myself in here later on. For now, I just feel drained.