So much anxiety today, being back at work. I'd like to see if I can figure out why.

1. I have a coworker who spend the whole weekend on a project deemed suddenly urgent by an executive who failed to tell her that a whole product line is being discontinued. Which means that the project documents are worthless.

I can't stand how incompetent people rise to executive levels. I despise that.

Whoooooo. Deep breaths.

2. I was also getting a distinct feeling of disapproval from my supervisor for being gone, but then realized that it was all in my head. I'm so worked up about being gone, that I assume everyone else is too. What doesn't jive is that evyerone else in my department except one person is gone far more than I am. He is just stressed in general and not at me in particular.

Had some very strange dreams last night. I can't write much more right now, but I will later as I'm able.
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I'm so hungry today. And I don't have tons of calories left - my Atkins bar was 260 instead of the usualy 220 and my lunch was about 40 higher than usual, and that takes its toll.

I don't know why I feel it necessary to stick to the 1200 level - I probably should consider going back to 1300. I do get a 60 cal snack of turkey meat in about 40 minutes.

I didn't weigh in this weekend due to being away, so I won't weigh in again until this coming Saturday. I would dearly love to be at 133, but I can't start stressing about that right now.

Shrimp and rice for dinner, which is pretty lo-cal.

I'm just flipping hungry.