S, Ripple, and I just got back from "Babies R Us". Well, Ripple stayed in the car (its 45 degrees here and the windows were open, all, do not call Animal Rescue). It was so much fun. We found the perfect solution to our space issue - there are cribs now with built in changing tables. And, the crib part can come out and it can be a play-pen. And it has wheels so we can wheel into our bedroom for the first couple months. Perfect! What a space and money saver. The ones we saw even had little music and white noise boxes on them.

We also saw the 3 in 1 stroller/car seat/carrier combo that we want. It was sweet to look at all the tiny clothes, too. I'm going to refuse to feel bad that I don't want an entirely coordinated nursery down to the diaper cady. It just gave me a headache to look at the 1,000 decorating options. I can't remember what my nursery as a baby looked like (we were in Ethiopia for one so I doubt it was very fancy) and despite my constant refrain to the contrary, I turned out alright. If the baby isn't going to remember his/her nursery decor, I'm not going to stress about it. Plus, the blue room will have to double as an office as well as a baby room for now so even if we wanted to go all out decorating, we'd have the desk and computer as an obvious eye sore.

I'm having some strange stomache cramps. Nothing too severe, but uncomfortable. Oh dear, I just realized - we...um...had some recreational activity this morning in a rarely (lately) used position - I wonder if that has anything to do with it? I don't think so. I can't imagine it would. Poor walnut - I'm sorry if that scared you.

S is making steaks and mashed potatoes right now. Yummy and big lunch. I'm looking forward to the steak - haven't had one in ages.

We found a little coffee shop and bakery this morning that we didn't know was just 8 blocks from us. It was quaint and the coffee was excellent.

I'm feeling wonderful today. I don't know exactly why. S and I have found some resolution to our conflict and the gentle, sweet but passionate love I'm so used to is there again for me to rest on. But, I think I feel so warm and good for more than that reason (although that's a good reason). I don't know - I just feel serene. I hope I'm a serene mother.

I'd better go see if I can help with lunch.