Went for my walk this morning - it went well. My tennis shoes gave me blisters which is an indication, in part, of how infrequently I've worn them over the last month. My feet are shaped differently now, too, though, and the shoes were never very good to begin with. Ripple seems to enjoy it which makes me happy. I've been much better about logging food the last three days. I'm about 100-300 over what I thought I was at, so this is good reminder of how, no matter how long you've been doing this, logging is the only way to really know what you are eating.

Okay - so I've given my roller coaster feelings and moods their fair shake. I've looked at the feelings, tried to figure out what is going on, and I give up. I think I've been very clear that I try never to dismiss feelings as TOM, hormones, pregnancy, etc. because I don't like the implications of doing that. However, I have met my match in this pregnancy. I give up. I'm an emotional circus right now and I accept it. I'm going to try not to delve, over analyze, or agonize about it. I'll cry if and when I need to cry and that will have to be enough. I'm doing what I can about it - I'm getting more active again, I'm taking Omega-3's. I'm trying to be present and aware of my choices. That will just have to be enough for now.

I need to leave for work now. I'm enjoying my new schedule. More later as work is very reasonable this week.

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I realized that the nightmarish feeling of forgetting things that I described in high drama a few journals ago is more often a feeling of aimlessness - I left the office for lunch intending to get the car detailed. And then....didn't. I decided that would be a good thing to do tonight, even though I have my doubts about whetehr it will get done or not. So, then I thought, I'll go to Target. I drove all the way there and then...didn't go in. I was really hungry, but it was more than that. A feeling of, I don't want to deal with Target so I sort of aimlessly drove back to work. Odd. Harmless, I think, but odd.

I left S a note thing morning telling him that I was sorry if I did something to upset him last night - that I appreciated how patient he has been with my ups and downs. But...he hasn't called me yet today at work, which is very strange. Either nothing is wrong or he really is upset.

I'm sleepy. I'd love to take a nap.

Note to self - consider not wearing white shirts while pregnant.

We're going to the drive-in this weekend - I love going to the drive-in. Ripple does so well and we always have such a good time. Can't wait. Then, next weekend, we're going camping, and the weekend after that my parents are coming to visit. Yippee! It will be the first time I've seen them since I've been pregnant.