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Friday, Aug 12 2005
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Work has been crazy this week - no CK time or journal time.
My dad made me cry on the phone last night. He told me very casually that his hands had been shaking so badly that he couldn\'t write at times so he went to the doctor who drew blood. The results were in when he got home and it doesn\'t appear to be anything physical or neurological. Apparently they figured out that it is anxiety based. It broke my heart to think of my father even a little anxious, much less to the point of shaking hands. I didn\'t let him know I was crying because I don\'t want him not to tell me things for fear of worrying me. But it just broke my heart. I don\'t want to think of my father getting older or hurting in any way. Sometimes I think the only way to show my parents how much I love them is to give them this grandchild. Its inadequate, but its the biggest thing I can think of. Daddy also mentioned that when Grandpa was in the hospice during the last weeks of his life, he would practice writing his name on a notepad, and Dad would see his efforts when he came to visit. Oh, I\'m tearing up now thinking about it again.
Walnut is moving like lightening. I saw the OB yesterday. My fondal measurements are still big although the growth over last visit is proportionate but I am still going to get another ultrasound. I\'m not worried, so the ultrasound will be fun. I\'ll get to see the baby again! I asked about access to a midwife during birth and it appears that you need to transition all care to the midwife beforehand to have one at the birth. ie - physician or midwife, not both. At this stage, I think I\'ll stay with my OB. I may consider a doula but right at the -moment, I don\'t feel the need. I don\'t mean that in a \"i-know-everything-on-my-own\" kind of way - I just don\'t feel the anxiety that I imagine a doula would help with. It may come down road. I don\'t know. Its strange. I\'ve done so much reading and research, though, I do feel like I\'m a bit knowledge-logged. I do need to read up though on the regular basics of breast feeding outside of BFAR (breast feeding after reduction) as well as the Bradley method.
S and I are a bit out of sync lately. I\'m nearly certain its because he is working more now. I think it makes him a bit uptight to be learning so much so fast, and it makes me feel like time is speeding up because I didn\'t picture him busy until the baby came, for some reason.
(I\'m going to save this before the computer dies).
I\'m outside on the deck, and the weather is beautiful. I have to go in to the office this weekend, but I am really looking forward to sleeping in.
Ripple and I went for our morning walks 3 mornings this week. And I loved them all. Arm and leg weights are going well. Nutritionally I could be doing better. My calories are generally in line, but I\'m pretty heavy on fat lately.
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I can\'t spell to save my life.
My dad made me cry on the phone last night. He told me very casually that his hands had been shaking so badly that he couldn\'t write at times so he went to the doctor who drew blood. The results were in when he got home and it doesn\'t appear to be anything physical or neurological. Apparently they figured out that it is anxiety based. It broke my heart to think of my father even a little anxious, much less to the point of shaking hands. I didn\'t let him know I was crying because I don\'t want him not to tell me things for fear of worrying me. But it just broke my heart. I don\'t want to think of my father getting older or hurting in any way. Sometimes I think the only way to show my parents how much I love them is to give them this grandchild. Its inadequate, but its the biggest thing I can think of. Daddy also mentioned that when Grandpa was in the hospice during the last weeks of his life, he would practice writing his name on a notepad, and Dad would see his efforts when he came to visit. Oh, I\'m tearing up now thinking about it again.
Walnut is moving like lightening. I saw the OB yesterday. My fondal measurements are still big although the growth over last visit is proportionate but I am still going to get another ultrasound. I\'m not worried, so the ultrasound will be fun. I\'ll get to see the baby again! I asked about access to a midwife during birth and it appears that you need to transition all care to the midwife beforehand to have one at the birth. ie - physician or midwife, not both. At this stage, I think I\'ll stay with my OB. I may consider a doula but right at the -moment, I don\'t feel the need. I don\'t mean that in a \"i-know-everything-on-my-own\" kind of way - I just don\'t feel the anxiety that I imagine a doula would help with. It may come down road. I don\'t know. Its strange. I\'ve done so much reading and research, though, I do feel like I\'m a bit knowledge-logged. I do need to read up though on the regular basics of breast feeding outside of BFAR (breast feeding after reduction) as well as the Bradley method.
S and I are a bit out of sync lately. I\'m nearly certain its because he is working more now. I think it makes him a bit uptight to be learning so much so fast, and it makes me feel like time is speeding up because I didn\'t picture him busy until the baby came, for some reason.
(I\'m going to save this before the computer dies).
I\'m outside on the deck, and the weather is beautiful. I have to go in to the office this weekend, but I am really looking forward to sleeping in.
Ripple and I went for our morning walks 3 mornings this week. And I loved them all. Arm and leg weights are going well. Nutritionally I could be doing better. My calories are generally in line, but I\'m pretty heavy on fat lately.
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I can\'t spell to save my life.
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