I am so upset. So upset. I gained 2.5 pounds this week. I'm so frustrated and upset. I'm so upset I cried and S found me and I had to tell him because otherwise I would've had to make something up - and I just don't like talking about my weight to him. My hip and waist measurements went down slightly, but my thigh measurement went up (!?!) - what the @#$%? I exercised more this week than I have since I was 4 months pregnant.

I feel like I don't know my body any more - its not responding in any way that I can recognize.

At the very worst, I should have maintained. Not gained. I don't know what to do. Obviously I have to just keep trucking, and I'm not tempted to give up - that's never my response, actually, but it just makes me feel so frustrated. And with all the trips I have planned in the next two months, how am I going to make any progress?

I'm so sad.

Will had a very hard night yesterday evening - inconsolable crying, poor darling. He slept fairly well during the night, though, so that is good.

My sister is in town - I need to focus on that and enjoy her time here.

Patti - I need my big girl panties. I don't know where they went.