Great workout today - on my brandnew, club length step! CK says I burned 375 cals, which is a bit high in my estimation, but it got me sweating.

Went shopping today - I actually handled it pretty well. I bought lots of pants and shirts in size 12, which is pretty awful for me, but it will make returning to work a bit easier (ie I won't wear the same 4 things for months). I also convinced myself that if I get pregnant again, I'll need them again on the way back down. So.

Steve and I had a very good conversation today. We each value what the other contributes to our family more than we value what we contribute ourselves. That was a convoluted (sp) sentence. My writing skills are gone, I think.

I have insomnia - I slept 4 hours last night. I'm sure its the Wellbutrin, but it could be some depression as well.

Will is "sitting" on the couch next to me - propped up in the corner of it. Its pretty cute. His legs haven't stopped moving in a 1/2 hour.

I feel more and more shy about writing the intimate details of myself - somehow, some way I feel like CK isn't the safe place it used to be. I don't mean that there are child molesters on the site - I just mean that the sense of trust I had in the communities is waning.

Oh, my son is so darling. I love him so much. His smile goes straight through me - its as if he sees everything about me and still adores me.