LYNNABEL's CalorieKing blog
Friday, Oct 9 2009
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I had an eyeliner dream last night. 
Although, it wasn't about eyeliner. I was, in fact, trying to catch a plane in Philadelpia with Amy C and another woman who I can't place now that I'm awake. We had to ride an open air shuttle train to get to the plain, and apparently that was VERY exciting. 
Fragmented thoughts/feelings today:
I am very anxious and I cannot for the life of me figure out why.
I did 30DS Level 3 yesterday - granted, with 2 lb weights and going with the beginner moves, but I still did it. Go me.
I went to yoga on Wednesday evening and learned Dead Man and Climbing the Mountain and a breathing exercise. It was not quite what I was expecting, but I think I will enjoy it. I can tell my problem will be tuning out the people around me.
Over a week now of not doing a certain thing. The first few days were horrendously emotional, but I have been fairly even-keeled since then. I have been sleeping very well and generally feeling physically good until last night and today (poor sleep and a headache).
I thought I was pregnant for a few hours and made the mistake of telling Steve, who was pretty upset at the idea. I don't want what having another child would mean from a life-complicating standpoint, but I would not consider NOT having the baby, and I think Steve would verge on that. I don't want our relationship to have to face that choice if we can avoid it, and I think it might be time for him to think about a vasectomy. We'll see. I am tired of the pill. I've been on too long.
I checkin tomorrow - and am nervous about it.
I feel like there is so much to get done, work and home-wise, which can't be helping my anxiousness.
I hope the weekend is a fun one with/for the kids.
Had a good session with my therapist this week. She is a good advocate for me, and helps me figure out how to pursue things that I have convinced myself are not pursuable.
More house fun - there is now, it appears, a previously undisclosed septic tank on our property! The fun never ends.
Five trees have to come down, which isn't cheap.
We have to buy a trailer to get the pontoon and dock in and out of the lake.
Good thing money grows on trees.
I usually love fall - the trees are starting to turn colors all around the lake and they are beautiful, but I feel too keyed-up to enjoy it right now. What could be wrong, that I can't put my finger on? TOM? Seems too extreme for that.
Although, it wasn't about eyeliner. I was, in fact, trying to catch a plane in Philadelpia with Amy C and another woman who I can't place now that I'm awake. We had to ride an open air shuttle train to get to the plain, and apparently that was VERY exciting. Fragmented thoughts/feelings today:
I am very anxious and I cannot for the life of me figure out why.
I did 30DS Level 3 yesterday - granted, with 2 lb weights and going with the beginner moves, but I still did it. Go me.
I went to yoga on Wednesday evening and learned Dead Man and Climbing the Mountain and a breathing exercise. It was not quite what I was expecting, but I think I will enjoy it. I can tell my problem will be tuning out the people around me.
Over a week now of not doing a certain thing. The first few days were horrendously emotional, but I have been fairly even-keeled since then. I have been sleeping very well and generally feeling physically good until last night and today (poor sleep and a headache).
I thought I was pregnant for a few hours and made the mistake of telling Steve, who was pretty upset at the idea. I don't want what having another child would mean from a life-complicating standpoint, but I would not consider NOT having the baby, and I think Steve would verge on that. I don't want our relationship to have to face that choice if we can avoid it, and I think it might be time for him to think about a vasectomy. We'll see. I am tired of the pill. I've been on too long.
I checkin tomorrow - and am nervous about it.
I feel like there is so much to get done, work and home-wise, which can't be helping my anxiousness.
I hope the weekend is a fun one with/for the kids.
Had a good session with my therapist this week. She is a good advocate for me, and helps me figure out how to pursue things that I have convinced myself are not pursuable.
More house fun - there is now, it appears, a previously undisclosed septic tank on our property! The fun never ends.
Five trees have to come down, which isn't cheap.
We have to buy a trailer to get the pontoon and dock in and out of the lake.
Good thing money grows on trees.
I usually love fall - the trees are starting to turn colors all around the lake and they are beautiful, but I feel too keyed-up to enjoy it right now. What could be wrong, that I can't put my finger on? TOM? Seems too extreme for that.
11 comments so far.
11.
a decade ago
by AMYC18
10.
a decade ago
LOL, Stace and my thoughts about the septic were the same. // Philadelphia is my "home" airport so perhaps it was a Jay airport ride that was so "exciting". Especially since Amy was in it.
by JAY
9.
a decade ago
how does one not disclose a large tank of shit in the ground? we have a tank and we need to call to have it serviced since we've been in the house over a year now. Larry and I have agreed that when it's time he'll look into the big V, and I very much enjoy being pill free. natural methods have kept me baby-free for a long time so I must not be very fertile.
:blush4:
by HOOSIERSTACE
8.
a decade ago
Jaxs, I was thinking the same thing. Damn, I'm dull. // OTOH, Dawn/Lynn, I think we should take our 36% and proudly run with it.
:afraid4:
by REV
7.
a decade ago
Ooops. Got ahead of myself with the posting there. If you decide you don't like your yoga class, I'd say try another one. They're all pretty different & you have to find what works for you. // I don't think money trees grow in Colorado. // Good work on the certain thing. Glad it's going well. Connie could be right about the keyed-up-ness. Maybe you should try some of that yoga breathing to see if it helps! Happy weekend.
by DEBORAHV
6.
a decade ago
What kind of eyeliner was that did you say?
by DEBORAHV
5.
a decade ago
Undisclosed septic tanks, dead man, eyeliner and TOM? Wow, your life is so interesting compared to me and my boxes.
by JAXS
4.
a decade ago
OMG! An eyeliner dream! I forgot to tell you that on my way home from STL (no, I did not have an eyeliner dream in the aiport), I read in a magazine that 36% of women have eyeliner dreams. So, you see, we aren't that freakish!
:) ////// I, too, have been very anxious this week too & can't figure out why... My nails are taking a beating because of it & my friend that does my nails is not very happy with me right now. 
:nono5: ///// And, I've been dropping little hints to Dan like, "when are you going to call a urologist?". He needs to get it done. I won't go back on the pill & am not fond of other alternatives either. /////When it rains, it pours on $$ for home improvements, doesn't it? 
:kiss:
by DAWN
3.
a decade ago
P.S. Of course I had to laugh at the eyeliner dream! Ah, unforgettable conversations.
by CLOE
2.
a decade ago
You're probably keyed up b/c you are only a little past the 1-week point of not doing a certain thing. Um ... is your house using the septic tank, or is it an old one predating a sewer line? If it's in use, it seems fairly important! My strategy for tuning out other people in workout classes is to get into a back corner of the room. I can see everyone that way, but I feel a little more private, even if it's illusory.
by CLOE
1.
a decade ago
OMG Lynn, I spit my diet coke when I read 'eyeliner dream'.
:rolling1: Do you think it anything to do with climbing the mountain? 
:laugh5:
by PATTIXOXO