LYNNABEL's CalorieKing blog
Sunday, Jan 10 2010
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My work life is turning into a black comedy. My boss invited me to a belated birthday lunch on Friday. I should have known something was going happen, but I tend to be naive sometimes. Over lunch he told me how the company is being restructed to deal with its growth and to deal with what needs to get done that isn't getting done. So far so good, because I agreed that something had to give. Unfortunately, what's giving is that I am now reporting to my nemesis. Yes, you read that right. The person who thinks I am incompetent, shouldn't have been hired (granted, this is my take on her attitude, but I don't think I'm far off), and (maybe the worse thing of all in a future manager), spoke negatively about me to coworkers is now the individual I report to. Said individual, who lives and works in another state, called me later on in the afternoon and told me that she was willing to let by gones be by gones, that she respects me, that she thinks I am really bright and this will be GOOD for my career. I feel humiliated by all this, somehow. Its vague and I can't put my finger on it exactly, but I feel like I'm being ... swindled. The one good I think that may come of this is that hopefully I will not longer be the target for this person - ie, any threat I represent is now neutralized because now clearly I'm less important than she is. Is it strange that this is barely affecting me emotionally? Am I in shock? Have I just had enough and now it doesn't matter? I can't figure it out. Is this healthy? I hope so.
Maintenance is hard. Have I mentioned that yet? I'm hungry as a horse. 1650 calories is NOT feeling like very much, even though a month or so ago it felt like a TON of food.
I'll check back later.
Maintenance is hard. Have I mentioned that yet? I'm hungry as a horse. 1650 calories is NOT feeling like very much, even though a month or so ago it felt like a TON of food.
I'll check back later.
8 comments so far.
8.
a decade ago
Lynnie, is your sister ok? I'm so worried and just dumbfounded by the devastation in Port au Prince. I'm sending all my prayers, as well as a donation for relief for the country. Please let us know how Stephanie is; so many of us have followed her travels and work.
:kiss:
by SCALEHO
7.
a decade ago
I swear I've come here to comment twice and still it hasn't shown up. I must be doing something really dorky that I'm not aware of!
:o
Anyway, I'm sorry to hear about the work situation. But it may not be all bad, as people are suggesting. Plus it'll give you a good chance to be the bigger person. It'll be a good situation to practice mindfulness on, for sure!
It sounds like you're doing really well on maintenance. I agree that it seems funny that all those calories seem like so few now. There's no winning that game, is there?
by DEBORAHV
6.
a decade ago
Thank you so much for the congratulations! While I am having great news about work, you had bad news today about work so your congrat is especially appreciated! Good luck with this situation. I had a smiilar situation at work last year and it turned out for the better in the end!
by UPTOWNGIRL
5.
a decade ago
Maybe having you report to her will make that person feel like she is ON YOUR SIDE. (Yes, I am an incurable optimist. Sometimes.) Anyway, I'm sorry it has happened b/c I know how stressful it will be for you. I'm just hoping it will be less stressful than you fear. And you know what, you ARE bright & diligent, and she SHOULD respect you. So maybe she is not as dumb as she sounds.
:look:
by CLOE
4.
a decade ago
Great words from great ladies have already been said, so I will merely say ditto, and tell you that I am here supporting you all the way.
:love:
by EPMOMMA
3.
a decade ago
Oh, how frustrating!
by BREADANDROSES
2.
a decade ago
Lynnie, I have no sage words for you; this is much more someone else's area of expertise than mine. What I *do* know is that you will continue to do the good and responsible and quality work that you have done, with the integrity you've always done it, and that that will eventually, bear out, and bear you up, in the midst of what I can only imagine is a crazy-making atmosphere. And I also know that your friends will be right there with you the whole way.
:kiss:
by REV
1.
a decade ago
well. part of this, as you can eloquently remind your former boss when the chance arises, will be a direct reflection on your new boss -- she is now responsible for your performance and if she bitches about it, she's bitching about herself, right? I think you might be on to something re: the power struggle. and shock is probably right... I think for the moment you have to take her on her word and see what happens.
:kiss:
by HOOSIERSTACE