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Sunday, Mar 27 2011
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I had a thought I wanted to capture before I lost it.
There is some alchemy in the spring sunshine together with laughter after tension that has lasted too long that makes me raw to the world - in both good and bad ways. I feel at the end of something - winter, I guess, but something more, too, I think. I feel exhausted and rejuvenated at the same time. I feel desperate love for my babies together with confusion for myself that isn't necessarily 'bad'. My eyes well up at nearly everything, which is painful, but again, not necessarily something that feels 'bad'. Have I been numb for a while? It almost seems so. This world is a tender and terrible place.
I don't want to force anything I've written to fit what I'm feeling, so I'm going to leave it there for now.
There is some alchemy in the spring sunshine together with laughter after tension that has lasted too long that makes me raw to the world - in both good and bad ways. I feel at the end of something - winter, I guess, but something more, too, I think. I feel exhausted and rejuvenated at the same time. I feel desperate love for my babies together with confusion for myself that isn't necessarily 'bad'. My eyes well up at nearly everything, which is painful, but again, not necessarily something that feels 'bad'. Have I been numb for a while? It almost seems so. This world is a tender and terrible place.
I don't want to force anything I've written to fit what I'm feeling, so I'm going to leave it there for now.
5 comments so far.
5.
a decade ago
Isn't it the craziest thing to suddenly realize you hadn't been feeling anything for a long time - and to do so by realizing how very much you now feel all the time?! Whoo.
by REV
4.
a decade ago
Love reading what you're thinking about. Hugs to you--and happy spring.
:heart2:
by DEBORAHV
3.
a decade ago
i love you.
:)
by CBL
2.
a decade ago
''This world is a tender and terrible place.'' I need to ponder that a bit, but on first reading, I think I concur.
:love:
by EPMOMMA
1.
a decade ago
maybe you're on the brink of discovering, whatever it is you need. Hugs.
by NMA5632